Yesterday Lorna and I went down to Houston so that we could watch the MLS (soccer) All Stars vs Manchester United.  We had a great time. Reliant Stadium was a great venue for the event and the match itself did not lack action, with Man Utd coming out on top 5 - 2.

The kids have been off school for several weeks now and I am definitely counting the days until they go back! That said, I am taking next week of so that we can do some fun things together as a family. I really need a break from work to recharge my batteries as things have been extremely busy. So, as I said, no major news to report, at the moment but I will try and get back into making more regular postings again soon.

Here's to more milestones like this one!

I have not posted for a month mainly because I did not have to much to share - which is a good thing. I hope everyone is having a safe and happy start to the holiday season. As always thoughts and prayers go out all fellow cancer patients and their families at this time.

I think I have more blood work scheduled in the next few weeks which as always I shall be nervous about but all continues to be well as far as I know. I have not posted here lately as we have all been very busy between work and school, soccer games, boy scouts, girl scouts, dance and camping trips.

I'll try and post a longer update soon but I could not let this milestone day pass by without a quick post.

Brandy during happier times - July 2008

None the less, both kids had a great Summer. They both attended lots of day camps and had numerous parties, play dates and sleep overs with friends. Robyn's Summer ended on a super high as she passed her Tae Kwon Do black belt test. Her graduation ceremony is on Thursday.

One of the things we have been doing lately is volunteering at the Williamson County Animal Shelter. As well as being a good cause anyway, it also is helping Robyn get one of her Girl Scout badges. However, those that know me well, know I love animals. Every time I go to the shelter I find it hard not to bring a dog home with me. Well a few weeks ago, my resolve broke and we now have a new member of the family. He is (we think) a four month old puppy. We are not sure exactly what breed he is. The shelter staff wrote him up as a Black Lab/Great Dane mix. Our vet says he sees some Sharpei in him, I think this may just be due to his "room to grow" wrinkly skin! Whatever breed he is, he is loads of fun and it is clear he is going to be BIG! The other dogs, after a few initial barks and warning growls to establish the boundaries and the pack order have now fully accepted him. We get to watch some fantastic play fights on a regular basis. This reminds me that I need to go and update the pets section of this web site and get updated photos of all the animals posted.

The weather here continues to be brutal. Every day during the Summer the high temperature reached or exceeded 100F and it has hardly rained at all. We are now (not before time in my opinion) on mandatory water controls.

On the medical front, I met with an Orthopedic Surgeon yesterday (not related to my cancer treatment) to get his opinion on my elbow which continues to be extremely painful after I whacked it against a plastic pipe at a water park back in June. As far as he can tell from the X-Rays and MRI pictures that have already been taken it's nothing more serious than an acute case of tendinitis (good old fashioned "Tennis Elbow"). The Cortisone shot that I got for it two weeks ago has so far not helped so they are going to start me on Physical Therapy later this week and a course of meds. We were joking that "Tennis Elbow" should really be called "Computer Mouse Elbow" these days as that is when it hurts me the most. The surgeon suggested I stop using the mouse and get a trackball instead. "Gee" I said, "what a great idea". I am supposed to be the computer guy but I think that the doctor is on to something there and it never occurred to me (sigh). Of course I am not the first patient with a bad elbow he has ever seen either!

On a slightly less "humerus" note (sorry I couldn't resist the pun), I am scheduled to meet with my colo-rectal surgeon tomorrow for my next round of checkups and my internal exam (yep, yuck!). I always get nervous when I go in for this one as this is how it all began almost two years ago and we all know where that went (wow time flies).

This weekend I went and paid the $29 for my copy of Apple's new Mac OS X 10.6 (Snow Leopard) operating system upgrade. I installed it on my Mac Book Pro laptop over the weekend and so far it seems to be running well and living up to the advertising. Lot a great deal of new visible features but definitely a bit faster and uses less disk space. I'll report more as I play with the new OS some more.  I know many of the folks that follow my web updates are Mac users. Please let me know if you are also upgrading.

That's about it for now. I'll post more after my tests this week are over.

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A couple of weeks ago we spent a week at the Great Wolf Lodge in Grapevine (right by the DFW airport) and had a great time. We went there last year and enjoyed it so much that we decided to go back again. This year I finally found the courage to ride the Tornado! It was a lot of fun and a much needed break for me from work, which, of late, has been extremely busy. On one of the water slides, I hit my arm very hard on the plastic side of the tube. It hurt so much that I went and had it X-rayed when we got back but there was no sign of any fracture. It still hurts a lot though!  We were also able to visit with our great friends Rhonda and Terry and their kids Elizabeth and Chip while in Grapevine.  They also visited us here in Round Rock last week for a day and we had a great time.You cannot put a price on such friends.

Thanks to the Internet and the BBC Radio broadcasts, I have been keeping up with the Ashes cricket series between England and Australia. So far it has been every bit as exciting as the series in 2005. I had planned to visit the UK with my good friend Dion Gillard (from Australia) this Summer to watch the cricket live. Sadly, as many of you will know from my prior posts, cancer took Dion from us way before his time a few months ago. I know we would have been having a great time and I think about him often.

Talking of absent friends, this time last year we lost one of our Golden retrievers, Toby. His sister Brandy was 13 on July 8th. She is not doing so well and I fear will not be with us too much longer either.  While we know that 13 years old is well beyond average for a Golden, it will still not be easy to see her go.

We have tried to find the kids lots of things to do that get them out of the house during the long Summer break. Robyn did a ceramics camp this week and I am taking Jack to a sleep-in at the Johnson Space Center (Mission Control) in Houston in a couple of weeks. I keep trying to get them to play outside but given the heat, all they seem to want to do when they are home is sit in front of the TV or the computer. School goes back on August 25th this year so we need to keep them busy for a few weeks yet!

On the medical front, my tests continue to look good but the neuropathy is proving extremely stubborn and I am still dealing with a lot of fatigue attacks. I have been doing some reading of medical papers on the Web lately, and it appears that many of my symptoms seem quite common among chemotherapy patients. I read with interest that some doctors are now describing the after effects that chemo has on people like me as "chemo brain". What is interesting is that I had myself been using that phrase to somewhat jokingly describe what I have experienced to people. Now it seems that maybe "chemo brain" will become a more formal name for the results of chemotherapy medications on the brain and neurological system of the patient.

That's it for now. As we head in to August in a few days I wish my many friends and family in Europe all the best as they start their prime Summer vacation season.

If you are curious, you can find my patents, courtessy of Google, here and here. In case you are wondering (having looked at my search results), no, I did not invent the system for organ placement during surgery!).

Anyway, if you have patents yourself or are just curious to see what you can discover I recommend doing a few searches.

So now that school is out, I am wondering once again if I am going to be able to work from home as much as I usually do now that my work environment has become very LOUD!!  I have turned on parental control on the playroom computer which forces them to unplug for at least part of the day. We are instigating a rule for the Summer that a certain amount of time must be spent outdoors. We also have the kids signed up for a few camps that will hopefully keep them distracted (and out of the house) for at least part of the time.

On the medical front, last week I had my latest scheduled round of blood tests. As far as they can tell, everything continues to look normal.

It's already in the mid to high nineties Fahrenheit here, it's going to be a long, hot Summer!

Best wishes to all

Thankfully my tests continue to show that I am (as far as can be determined using current technology) cancer free. However, my journey is far from over and I am continuing to run into additional issues that were most likely caused by the FOLFOX chemotherapy that I underwent between December 2007 and May 2008. Chemo has become a lot more effective over the years but for all the good it does it definitely comes at a price, but as my wife constantly reminds me, I am still alive to gripe about it!  Most recently, as I mentioned in my prior posting, I have been suffering some fairly bad fatigue. A week ago I went to see the oncologist and they ran a set of tests on me. All of my basic blood work (white count, platelets, haemoglobin) came back fine and there was no sign of any issues with my Thyroid. The only test that seemed at all off was my Testosterone level which was at the low end of normal ("is that chemo or my age?" I ask myself!!). Anyway, the oncologist has decided to put me on a regimen of monthly testosterone shots for a while to see if that helps. I had my first shot last week and it may be my imagination but I already seem to have a bit more energy!

Anyway that's it for now. Thanks as always for all the messages of concern. It's great to know I have such a great set of people cheering me on.

This past Sunday, we went to see the Broadway touring production of "Spamalot" here in Austin. It was excellent. Richard Chamberlain was great as King Arthur and it's hard to believe that he is now 75 years of age. This coming Saturday we have tickets to see Elton John and Billy Joel live in concert. I have seen them together before and am hoping for another great show. We don't get out that often so having two great events on back to back weekends is a real treat!

One of the reasons I have been posting here a bit less is that I have been trying to give more real time status updates on both Facebook and Twitter. I have to say though that the recent changes made to the Facebook web page (I think it's a real mess now) probably mean I will be spending less time there in the future

On the medical front I am continuing to get my strength back but lately have been feeling a bit more tired than usual and I think I have overdone it a bit both in terms of trying to get back into shape and also in terms of housework and other errands. Lorna and I debated buying a treadmill but after researching how much a decent one costs we ended up joining a local gym which offers a pay by the month plan. I have been trying to get to the gym one or two times a week. I feel like I am in hand to hand combat right now with the drugs that help with my neuropathy. I love that they cure the pain but I hate that they help me gain weight!

That's it for now then - I hope you are well as you read this.

A few days after my birthday it was time for my next round of blood work and physical exams. The worst part about the blood tests are that they can give you you basic numbers (white count, platelets, haemoglobin) almost right away but it takes a day to get the "CEA marker" test back (and those are the ones that can indicate a recurrence of colon cancer). I am happy to report that all of the tests (both blood work and physical exam) came back clean and as far as the doctors can tell, I remain cancer free. I have no more tests scheduled until June (so I get four months to try and relax a bit). The neuropathy continues to be an issue. As an experiment, n discussions with my oncologist, we agreed to try reducing the amount of Lyrica I am taking to see if the pain remains under control while hopefully stemming the weight gain that I have been experiencing since I started on this drug. For the benefit of fellow patients that I know are reading this blog, the Lyrica has done a really good job with the pain but it seems to be the main cause of my weight gain. I'm also trying to focus on exercise and fitness to see if I can win back a few pounds. I'll keep you all posted on my progress!

I hope everyone is off to good start in 2009 and I particularly want to send out best wishes to all of the other cancer patients out there that I have met because of this blog.

There are a lot of other sites that offer similar facilities, but these are the four that I currently use and  they, I think, cover my personal life connectivity needs! I do also use sites like del.icio.us and Digg to store my bookmarks on-line but I am not including those sites in this list. I also use photo sharing sites like Flickr and Picasa but for now I am not listing those here either. I am finding that I use e-mail and dedicated instant messaging tools less these days, especially since Facebook added an instant messaging facility. Of course I also use a lot of additional tools for my day job including the more traditional tools like e-mail, instant messaging, news groups and discussion lists, as well as some of the more interesting web conferencing and collaboration tools but the the web sites listed above I view as more the ones I use in my personal life. I could also get into my use of virtual worlds like Second Life but that deserves a whole posting of its own at some future date.

An interesting footnote to this posting is that I feel so well in touch these says with my friends and family around the World that I think Christmas cards, at least for us, are probably a thing of the past (sort of sad but also the reality of the times we live in).

I continue to be humbled by the fact that I am still being contacted by fellow cancer patients (usually colon cancer patients like myself) who have found  my web site while searching the internet for reassurance as they start their treatment. That was one of the main reasons I started keeping the journal here of my treatment and I am really pleased that it has been useful to others. If you are a cancer patient reading this, e-mail me and I will always reply and I will help in any way I can by sharing my experiences. You can reach me by sending e-mail to gfxman@yahoo.com.

I'm back to work today for the first time in several weeks and the kids are back at school. The house feels extremely quiet.  I took an extended break to burn off all of my unused vacation time and I feel a lot more rested as a result. I have spent a lot of time over the past few weeks playing with the kids both indoors and outdoors and finally catching up on many house projects and also on my reading. Our video games and our bicycles all got an extended workout too andI even got both my daughter's bedroom the garage tidied up!

We celebrated Jack's seventh birthday on December 17th. I cannot believe that he is seven already. I need to upload the photos from my camera and post a few here.

Looking back, 2008 as far as I am concerned, was truly a year unlike any other. I was in chemotherapy for the first 24 weeks of the year and then recovering from the side effects for a long time after that. In fact, I am still dealing with some of them and probably will be for some time to come. I'm not complaining however. I'm still here for my family and that's all that matters.  There was also the seemingly endless schedule of blood tests, CT scans, surgeries and other fun stuff. Thankfully I have no more tests or other medical procedures scheduled until next month. I can finally feel my energy returning and I have started trying to exercise regularly. Over the holidays I spent a lot of time riding my bike and working out with weights. I also want to get my Rollerblades out of retirement once it stops raining!

One of the  post chemo side effects I need to address somehow is the weight that I gained due largely  to the medications I still have to take daily.  Right now I weigh about 50 pounds more than I did a few weeks after surgery in October 2007 (which of course caused me to lose weight) and about 30 of those pounds seemed to appear very soon after I started taking a specific drug back in August. So, to a large degree I had little control over the weight I have gained but I have decided to draw a line in the sand and try to fight back!  Check back here periodically for news (hopefully) of my progress!

Meanwhile the weather here has been crazy. It was 83 degrees Fahrenheit two days ago and I was out in shorts. Today it's raining and barely above freezing. It's supposed to be back in the seventies by midweek - such is a Central Texas Winter !

Anyway, this has been a nice diversion but I need to get back to work so here's wishing everyone all the very best for a safe and happy 2009.

Because I spent almost half the year on chemotherapy, and also as I am still dealing with side effects from both my surgery and the chemo, we didn't take much family vacation time this year. Consequently,  given that, as with most companies, my vacation is on a "use it or lose it" basis, I started December with about 19 days of vacation left to take. As a result, I have been off work for over a week now and will not be back officially until January 5th next year. I say "officially" as I am still checking my e-mail and attending the occasional meeting by phone as I just cannot stand to be out of touch for a whole month at a time when things at work are so busy.

As you may have guessed from the title of this entry, today is the last day of school for the year. The kids should be home soon. I have been enjoying the quiet at home the last week or so as I worked on my various chores and projects - oh well, it was good while it lasted!

As far as the household projects go, among the more notable are my daughter's bedroom, which I have remodeled and emptied out substantially  (something she has been begging me to help her do for ages) and I am part way through converting one of the other rooms in the house into a workout area (something I very much need). The meds I am on to combat the neuropathy left behind by chemotherapy have added about 30 pounds to my post-surgery weight. I don't seem to have a lot of control over this but I am trying hard to lose a few of those pounds somehow. I usually find it very easy to lose weight but not this time. I am going to have to work out extra hard. The pedometer that Lorna got me shows I am averaging over 3 miles walked a day and many days lately I have walked five miles or more but it doesn't seem to be enough. Hence I need to get into some sort of regular workout regimen as I fear I'll be on these meds for a while yet. I tried coming off them for one day a week or so ago and the pain was unbearable by mid-afternoon. Generally on the medical front I am doing quite well - neuropathy aside. I have no more tests scheduled until February.

This week I am trying to get more into Christmas activities. I cannot believe that Christmas Day is only a week away. I feel very unprepared this year - although we do have the gifts for the kids both purchassed and wrapped. Our tree is up, the lights are on, but we still need to decorate it. Part of the reason for the tree delay is that the new tree we bought last year (a large 10ft self lit one) seems to have shorted out and after wasting an hour trying to fix it Lorna and I decided to cut our losses and go buy a replacement. We have not even tried to send Christmas cards this year. Apologies to all of my friends and family that we usually send one too. We've just been too busy with medical appointments and other unexpected health issues with other family members to manage to send Christmas cards. We'll be trying to contact everyone either by phone or e-mail over the holiday period. I bought a Christmas train set to go under the tree (I saw it on sale and could not resist it - I'm still a kid at heart) and I shall be putting that together later today.

In amongst all of the house projects I have been trying to have a little fun as well. I have spent quite a few hours playing video games (both alone and with the rest of the family).  Our most played game right now are Wii Fit and Guitar Hero III - Legends of Rock (I have finally almost mastered the most basic level!). I have also been trying to get caught up on my reading. I have a lot of books sitting in the queue waiting to be read. I'm currently reading Hawke by Tedd Bell (I really like his books so far) and next on deck in the 1000 plus page Cryptonomicon by Neal Stephenson (I have not read any of his books yet but I am told that is a good one).

As I type this I am in shorts and it is 71F outside (apologies to my friends in the North Eastern US that are buried in snow). A few days ago the temperature was in the 20's and it actually snowed a few flakes. The day before that it was 80F. This weekend it is supposed to get cold again before warming up again next week. The weather here can only be described as crazy!

Last weekend my trusty Mac Book Pro, which has worked flawlessly for the past year, froze and I had to forcefully power it off. After that I could not get it to reboot. I was however able to restore the machine using the wonderful Time Machine backup program that comes as part of Mac OS X. Thankfully I had been keeping regular backups so I was able to restore the machine to the state it had been in right before it froze. However, the disk was now making very odd noises and experience told me it was dying and would soon fail for good. I made an appointment to go and see the folks at the "Genius Bar" in the local Apple store on Monday morning and even though my machine was two weeks out of warranty (go figure) they offered to replace the disk for free (I didn't even have to do any begging or groveling) . They didn't have one in stock but said they would order me one. Wednesday evening they called and said the disk was in. On Thursday evening I dropped the machine off at around 7pm and went with the family to have dinner. Right after dinner, around 8:30pm,  they called me and said the machine was ready to pickup. Today I restored the computer using the same Time Machine backups I had used before and I now have my system back just as it was but running on a brand new disk. The combination of the great service from the Apple store and the ease with which I was able to restore my machine truly impressed me (and that's not easy with this type of stuff). I will definitely be buying more Macs as the other machines in the house grow older and need replacing. I have really developed a liking for my Mac Book Pro since buying it to be my companion during the seemingly endless hours of chemotherapy treatment, but this just experience further convinced me that they are worth the premium price charged for them.

That's it for now then. I'd like to take this opportunity to wish all of my friends and family around the World a very safe and happy Christmas.  To all of my friends that celebrate other holidays, all the very best to you too. I hope you all find peace and happiness in each of your endeavours.

]]> Fri, 19 Dec 2008 16:52:54 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/0000102 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Dec-04-a Things have been very busy both at home and at work with it being the holiday season now. I took last week off to spend time with the family and to enjoy the Thanksgiving holiday here in the United States. This week (as always happens) I am trying to get caught up on the backlog of work and e-mail that builds up whenever one takes a few days off!  That said, given I spent almost half the year undergoing chemotherapy, I have not used much of my vacation entitlement for this year. Consequently, Friday (as in tomorrow) will be my last day at work for 2008. I will not return to work (officially) until January 5th next year. I say "officially" as I will still be checking my e-mail while away to avoid having to deal with a mountain of unread mail when I get back to work in January. It's hard to believe it's that time of year again.

Last week we took the kids to see the movie Bolt in 3D. I enjoyed the movie and thought the 3D technology used was a lot better than I had expected it would be. In general (aside from what I regard as specialist environments such as Disney and Universal Studios) I have not enjoyed broad release 3D movies. Bolt definitely is an exception to that and I would recommend it as a good family movie.  Meanwhile, the weather here in the Austin area has been gorgeous. Blue skies and very warm temperatures. Yesterday our daytime high was 79 degrees Fahrenheit. That said, last night, as often happens this time of year, a cold front blew through and this morning we woke up to a chilly 35 degrees. It was cold enough that my son ran from the car into the school at full speed - not his usual MO at all !

I have not posted here for a few days but I have been making regular posts both on Twitter (my ID is @gfxman if you are a Twitter user) and on Facebook. Somehow I find it takes me a lot more effort to sit down and write a (hopefully) meaningful blog post than it does to quickly update my status on Twitter and Facebook. Many of my friends and colleagues have made the same observation. I still enjoy both reading and writing blog posts (and I particularly like having a nice journal of things I can look back on - such as my treatment log here) but I must confess that I am able to keep up with most of my friends and some of my family these days via Facebook. I have been using Facebook for quite a while now but I am fairly new to Twitter and still not exactly sure if it's for me but I am persevering with it for a bit longer. I find it much easier to find people I know and want to keep in touch with on Facebook than on Twitter. To be fair though, a lot of people I like following from a computing/IT perspective do seem to be on Twitter so maybe that is just a different community. In fact the overlap of people I follow who are both on Facebook and Twitter seems to be quite small.

At any rate, it's hard to believe that December has crept up on me again and that another year is almost over. I will write a "look back at the year" post closer to the end of the year but for now let's just say I have a lot to be thankful for in 2008. My family, my friends, my doctors, the fact that I have no more medical tests until February, the list seems almost endless. It truly has been a year unlike any other. TTFN.

As I mentioned in my prior posting, this was to see if the chemotherapy treatments had damaged the bone marrow badly enough that it needs treating. I called the doctor's office about an hour ago to see if they had the results back. They did. I am hugely relieved to say that his preliminary reading of the results is that everything looks normal. As far as I know this means I don't need additional treatment and I just have to be patient and let my body heal itself. Thanks everyone for all your messages of support and encouragement in the Guest Book and elsewhere once again during this period.

I am grateful to everyone who has been calling me and writing to me to ask about the test results. Sorry it has taken me a few days to update the status here. I had a good friend in town staying with us for the weekend. Yesterday we went to the UT game (against Baylor) in the morning and my kids both had soccer games in the afternoon followed by an end of season pizza party. Just another quiet Saturday. I am trying to get caught up on my web and e-mail backlog today!

So that's the medical update for now. I'll post again after the biopsy. The results will take over a week to come back, so it will be Thanksgiving here in the US before we know the outcome most likely.

Meanwhile, the weather here in Texas has been gorgeous. Cool overnight (40's F) and then warming up to almost 80 during the day with not a cloud in the sky so still wearing shorts in mid-November and yesterday Arsenal beat Manchester United, what more could I ask for?   :-) ]]> Sun, 9 Nov 2008 09:31:08 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000099 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Nov-03-a No, I'm not referring to the US elections tomorrow unfortunately. Instead, for me it's time for the next round of post chemo medical checks. Tomorrow after a scheduled 7am work meeting and a trip to the local school to vote, I have to go to the Oncologist's office for blood tests and then on Wednesday I have a CT scan scheduled. We are due to meet with the doctor to get the results on Friday. So while by tomorrow night one way or another millions of people here in the US will be celebrating, I have to wait a few more days to get the result that I most care about - I know, call me selfish!

Meanwhile I do plan to stay up late tomorrow night and watch the results come in on what may well be an historic day in American history. I will however be glad when the whole election process is over. I am so sick of the endless TV coverage, the annoying commercials that say nothing about what their candidate would do and instead just focus on why the other guy is even worse as well as the phone calls and visits to the front door. I just hope and pray that the balloting process passes without any major mishaps this time around and that by sometime on Wednesday, we have a clear winner.

Living in Texas, my vote, sadly has little meaning (no matter which way I vote this state will stay Republican), but at least I can go to Starbucks after the doctor, tell them I voted, and get a free cup of coffee!!  Hopefully I can also tell them I voted for the guy who won :-)

I am very grateful that due to the skill of the doctors that diagnosed me and performed the surgery on me as well as the oncologist who subsequently blasted my body with chemotherapy that I am still here to type this text today.

I think I'll keep this post brief and reflect on how blessed and how lucky I am to have such great doctors, who are still looking after me, and such  great friends who have helped me keep my spirits up through the last twelve months. Also, if you have been thinking about, but putting off, getting a colonoscopy done - do it now - it could save your life!

Meanwhile a lot of things that I need to blog about have been going on. I'll try and get that done soon. In summary, the kids are doing well at school and enjoying playing soccer. We adopted a dog, a four year old Golden Retriever called Rocket. He's a great dog and it feels really good to have been able to give him a nice home. I have been able to finally make a couple of business trips. I went out to San Jose, CA a few weeks ago to attend the SHARE conference and a couple of weeks ago I flew up to Boston to attend some IBM Academy meetings. That was also the first time I flew on Jet Blue. I really liked them and will definitely use them again. Being able to watch the Ryder Cup golf live while on a plane was very cool. American Airlines, with whom I have in excess of two million miles on my frequent flier account, need to do some serious upgrading if they want to win me back as a customer on domestic routes out of Austin.

Finally, in a couple of weeks I am off to the Colorado Software Summit. I am really excited about that. I love the conference. I think it's the best programming conference around. I missed the conference last year as it was right before I went into the hospital for surgery. I made a more detailed posting about the conference on my work blog a few days ago and Simon Phipps just did a nice writeup on his blog as did Dave Landers on his blog. Please let me know if you are reading this and planning to be at the conference.

So that's the update for today. As always a big THANK YOU to everyone that has supported me and my family through this whole ordeal and for all of your messages in the Guest Book. I feel very blessed to still be here one year on.

The good news is that the lab work continues to show no signs of cancer. My haemoglobin levels are also back to normal so the fatigue/anemia is gone and my energy levels are definitely up!

The bad news is that my white cell count and my platelet count remain abnormally low. The oncologist says he is puzzled by this and he has me in his "requires more investigation" pile. His best theory is that the chemo damaged the bone marrow so badly that my body is just taking longer than average to recover from it. The recent CT scan shows that my spleen is enlarged. Again this could be because it is trying to help offset the weakness of the bone marrow. Lorna asked him if this could be evidence of Leukemia. He said he does not think so as the blood work does not show that. However, if my white count has not recovered enough in four weeks from now he wants to do a bone marrow biopsy on me (I hear they are painful so hope I can avoid that). I have another CT scan planned for the first week of November. If my spleen gets too far out of whack they are also saying that removing it is an option - oh joy!

On top of this my neuropathy (numbness/pain in hands and feet) has become (at least by my measurements) severe. I'm periodically in a lot of pain and cannot feel anything under my feet and my fingers hurt when I type.

So while I am happy that the tests seem to indicate we are heading in the right direction I remain nervous about the overall state of affairs. I guess that is why they make the little blue pills! I am trying very hard to just get on with my life and forget about all of this between doctors visits but I have to admit it is hard.

Meanwhile, this weekend Hurricane Ike is coming to visit so that should certainly keep me preoccupied!!

Both kids have soccer games this weekend but Ike may have a say in that. The UT Football game we were hoping to go to has already been cancelled.

That's it for now. I'll post again soon with an Ike update and other news, including my first bad experience with the Mac Book Pro - my battery died after less than eight months of use! That's it for now, I'm off to bed...

Looking back, I am really pleased that with all of the medical things going on we have still managed to do a lot of fun stuff this Summer as a family. It feels a bit strange not to have the kids around today as I work from home in a very quiet house. I do feel more productive though - imagine that !

This is a short work week due to Monday being the Labor Day holiday here in the US. We had a fairly lazy "long weekend" and I spent a lot of time either swimming in the pool or trying to catch up on my reading. It was really nice to not have a full agenda of things to do for a change. On Saturday evening Lorna and I went to the opening game of the University of Texas (UT) football season. The stadium has been enlarged yet again during the off season and now has a capacity of around 100,000. Indeed the official attendance for the game on Saturday was 98,053. I hear they are talking of adding even more seating in the future! This is a stadium that apparently pays for itself and yet hosts an average of just six (yes six) games a year!! As someone who played both Cricket and Soccer at University in England where it was a good day if five people turned up to watch us play it still blows my mind to observe the sheer immensity of collegiate sports, especially football (not to be confused with the kind of football/soccer I play), here in the US. It must be an amazing experience for those lucky enough to compete in such an environment. Apart from perhaps Wembley stadium in London, I cannot think of any other venue in England that compares in sheer size to the UT stadium - and this is (non professional) college sports!! We had a very enjoyable time at the game and we're both looking forward to the next home fixture in a couple of weeks.

Another indication that Summer is actually winding down is that our local baseball team (the Round Rock Express) have now played their last home game for the season. While the major league parent team (the Houston Astros) still has a fair number of games left to play, the triple-A season is now over and the NFL is about to get underway. Meanwhile on the other side of the Atlantic the English Premier League has started (seems like that season gets longer every year) and the cricket season is winding down. We also have the Ryder cup to look forward to of course.

So I guess perhaps, at least in this part of the World, Summer is "officially" over - now if someone could please tell that to the weather......

Back to school day

Meanwhile, today here in Texas is "back to school day". Apart from the agonising sounds coming out of my iOmega external hard drive (I think the fan is going - this will be he third one to die on me in about three years) the house is silent. The kids left early for school today and won't be home until after 3pm so I have a very quiet work environment indeed - I almost miss having them around but don't let them know I said that ok! It probably seems odd to my friends and family over in the UK that school is back so soon but we broke up in May whereas I think you all still break up for the Summer in July. So we've actually had the kids home for about 3 months. It's time for them to go back!   Jack is starting First Grade this year, and hard though it is to believe, this is Robyn's last year before moving up to Middle School as she starts out on Fifth Grade.

A few of you have again written to me saying you have had problems posting to the Guest Book. As far as I know, this only ever happens if you are using Internet Explorer 6. I do have a message on the Guest Book launch page that warns about this know problem. I have confirmed with one of the people that recently had problems that they indeed were using IE6. If you are seeing Guest Book problems with other browsers, please do let me know.

I have to go back again in two weeks to be tested again to see if things are improving. My haemoglobin count is thankfully continuing to improve and is now almost back to the typical range for male of my age.

Tomorrow morning at 9am I am having surgery to remove my chemo port. It will be weird after all of these months not to feel it there. I am also having a follow up colon check which I am nervous about but it's something I'll have to get used to as this will be a regular part of my life over the next few years.

I'll post another update once I am recovered enough from surgery.

Anyway, here's a quick medical update as there is still quite a bit going on. It has now been over three months since I ended chemotherapy. As I have documented here in detail, during chemo I suffered through a whole collection of different side effects at various times. Many of those went away fairly quickly after chemo ended. A few have stuck with me however. By far the worst is the neuropathy (numbness and pain in my hands and feet). Interestingly, the neuropathy only began during the last week or so of chemo but has since then become incrementally worse. It is caused by the Oxaliplatin (one of the three drugs that make up the FOLFOX chemo regimen). I am on medication that is supposed to suppress some of the pain that the neuropathy causes but for the most part I just have to be patient and wait for it to take care of itself. My oncologist has told me that it can take over a year for the effects to fully wear off. For the benefit of the many other folks that have found my web site and have been kind enough to contact me, all of whom are fighting their own battles with colon cancer, and all of whom seem to be having the same basic experience as me, the doctor has tried a couple of drugs to help relieve the neuropathy pain. At first we tried Cymbalta which did help a little but had nasty interactions with other medications I am taking (primarily the Paxil) so I had to stop taking it. I am now trying Lyrica which again seems to help some but seems to itself be causing some nasty side effects that I am not enjoying. The biggest issues to date are weight gain (just what I needed!), trouble concentrating and swelling of my feet, legs and hands (the swelling is also in part, I believe, caused by the Oxaliplatin). So, while I am really excited by my test results from a week ago, I still find myself with a lot of issues to handle on a daily basis. Don't get me wrong however, you won't find me complaining as if the chemo and surgery have done their job I'll live with the rest for as long as it takes to resolve itself.

Talking of tests, just when I thought I was almost done it turns out to not quite be the case. My oncologist's office called last week while I was in San Jose. They want me back for more blood tests this Friday as after further thought they have decided that my white cell count and platelet count really are a bit too low and they want to check me again and if necessary take steps to help those numbers improve.  I'll keep you all posted as to how that goes.

Also, next Monday I have an appointment to see the surgeon who did my colectomy back in October for a check up. I'm not going to go into details but I think you get the picture (or at least I hope he will!). He is also going to take out my chemo port (a fairly minor surgical procedure) at the same time. So I'll be back at the hospital again next week for I think the fifth time in the last 10 months. I'm a little nervous about the checkup as if he finds any polyps we are going to have to take immediate steps to try and prevent them from becoming cancerous. Hopefully everything will be OK.

So that's the medical update, I'll make another posting when there is anything worth sharing.

I'd like to end this posting by sending my very best wishes and prayers out to all of the people who have contacted me during the past several months to thank me for sharing my experiences and for telling me that in doing so I had also helped them as they faced their own struggle with cancer. It is not always easy to share something so personal in such a public fashion but my goal in doing so was in large part to reach out to others in a similar situation to me. I am both happy and more than a little humbled to have heard from so many of you. Good luck all of you, and please keep in touch. I have made many new friends in the last six months which has been one of the good side effects of this experience.

An odd side effect of the medication I am still on is that I don't remember too much of either flight but I took some nice photos of the Grand Canyon and some interesting video of the approach into San Jose so I guess I had a good time !! This was also the first time I have done any public speaking in quite a while. This is something I really enjoy and it was great to be "back in the saddle" as it were. It was also really nice to see so many good friends and colleagues, many of whom I had not seen since before my surgery last October. San Jose as a city has also improved immensely as a place to visit since I first went there in 1987. I decided not to get a rental car and basically just walked everywhere. The conference was at the Convention Center and the hotel is very close to there. Plenty of places to eat are just a short walk away and there is also the must see "Tech Museum". Among the many restaurants is Gordon Biersch, a place I always try to visit at least once when in San Jose. Garlic fries and a glass of locally brewed Heffeweizen out on the back patio - sweet!!!  If you want to get merry in a hurry then drink the Blonde Bock (7% alcohol with an o.g. of 16.5) but just don't do what I did the first time I went there and ask for a Guinness!

The conference hotels (Marriott,Hilton and Fairmont) were all sold out when I made my reservations so I ended up staying, for the first time, at the Sainte Claire hotel. The rooms were clean and felt modern, the WiFi was free and they have a great Italian restaurant (Il Fornaio) on the ground floor. What more could you want?......well a bar or at least somewhere to hang out in the evening would be nice but in general a perfectly OK hotel to stay at.

For those who want to read a little more about SHARE and what we do there, I have posted a few times recently over at my work blog on the topic.The next SHARE conference is actually going to be in my home town of Austin, Texas next March so I won't have far to travel for that event!

On the medical front I am still suffering through some really annoying and painful side effects from the chemotherapy and also the medications I am on that are supposed to help suppress the first set of side effects have their own set of side effects! I'll make another posting soon on the overall medical situation as there is still quite a lot going on.

I cannot begin to express my feelings and emotions right now. No one knows what is in store from one day to the next but tonight at least I am going to go out and do something fun, actually I'm hoping we can go to the movies and see Dark Knight which I still have not seen.

As always thank you everyone so much for your continued support, e-mails, phone calls, visits and messages in the guest book during this ordeal. It means the World to me.

Meanwhile, I want to extend my best wishes and prayers to my good friend Dion down in Sydney, Australia who is in the middle of his own battle with cancer and starting out on chemotherapy tomorrow. I hope he will get the same level of support from his friends and family around the World that I have been lucky enough to receive. If you are so inclined, please include Dion in your thoughts and prayers.

As for my kids, this continues to be a very busy Summer. Robyn has Karate camp this week and both Robyn and Jack spent last week in "British soccer camp". A bunch of great lads from the UK come over every year and run the camp at a nearby park. It's a lot of fun and the kids had a great time. Robyn is also continuing to appear in the local community theatre production  of  "The Witches".

The weather here in Central Texas continues to be very hot. Every day for the past several weeks we have been close to (or above) 100 degrees Fahrenheit. This week I am back at work while Lorna and the kids are having fun at vacation bible school at one of the local churches. I have also been trying to keep up with the Euro 2008 matches and with Wimbledon (both of which are being shown live on TV here). This coming weekend Robyn has a 3 v 3 soccer tournament which should be a lot of fun although it is likely to be very hot during most of the games.

On the medical front, the numbness in my feet and hands continues to be quite painful, in fact, typing has become very uncomfortable for me so I will keep this posting brief. I am visiting the oncologist's office on Wednesday to get my chemo port flushed and I am hoping they can do something more for the numbness. The meds they gave me have so far not improved things at all.

Anyway, that's the news for now, I'll try to post again soon.

Anyway, it was nice for me to get away for a few days, even if it was primarily a week of business meetings for me. I had not been out of the state of Texas since before my surgery last October so a week away was really quite a treat. I did not manage to make it to the them parks with the family but we did get to spend a fun evening together at Disney Quest (a five story building full of all types of video games both old and new and some really cool virtual reality rides). On the night before we started driving home we all had dinner at the Arabian Knights (you eat while watching the horses and actors perform). By all accounts a fun time was had by all and I feel refreshed just from being out of the house for a while.

This week I had a series of business meetings at the office and it was really nice to meet so many colleagues, many of whom I had not seen for many months due to my ongoing medical issues.

Talking of medical issues, it has now been five weeks since chemo ended. Some of the side effects have definitely improved, others however are lingering on. In particular, the numbness in my fingers that had just started by the end of chemo has now also spread to my feet and has generally become quite a but worse. It has reached the point in fact, where driving the car feels strange as I can only barely feel the pedals. I called the doctor and he has put me on some meds that are hopefully going to help with this (yet more pills to remember to take!). Apparently this numbness can take many months to fully go away and is caused by the Oxaliplatin (one of the chemo drugs) which messes quite badly with the nervous system.

The kids are already well into the various camps and other activities that we planned for them this Summer and seem to be having a lot of fun. The weather has been extremely hot here in Texas. We have already had multiple 100 degree days in the Austin area. Heaven only knows what August will be like at this rate. Thankfully we have so far escaped most of the severe storms that have all passed to our North. Anyway, that's all the updates for today. I'm taking next week off so I can spend some quality time with the family and forget about work for a few days. After that I hope to get back into a routine of more regular updates here as the Summer progresses.
]]> Fri, 13 Jun 2008 16:47:06 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000080 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-May-29-a I haven't posted for a few days in part because there has not been a lot of news to share on the medical front (which is fine by me). It has now been 22 days since my last chemo session ended (on May 7th). The "fog" seems to have left me now finally for which I am very grateful. It has been replaced however by a feeling of total exhaustion - I think I have finally let myself relax a bit and it's past time to catch up on a lot of missed sleep. Most of the other chemo side effects are still with me which is no great surprise as my doctor told me to expect it to take between four to six weeks for them to subside. The thing that is bugging me the most right now is a constant feeling of numbness in all of my fingers and toes - it actually makes typing and even walking bit uncomfortable. This is a known side effect of the Oxaliplatin medication, so I hope it goes away soon. I visited the Oncologist's office yesterday to get my chemo port flushed. I have decided not to have it removed until August so that I can have all of my interim blood tests done via the port (rather than having to endure a lot of needles being stuck into my arm). The port has to be flushed every four weeks to prevent any risk of blood clots. The next major medical milestones are scheduled for August when I'll need another CT scan, a lot of other tests and an exam by my surgeon. When all of that is done I'll need minor surgery to remove the port.

So let's see, what else is going on? Well, we had a very nice and relaxing Memorial Day weekend. The weather was (and continues to be) very hot and we spent a lot of time out by the pool. The kids had lots of friends over and had fun in the water. I spent a lot of time in "slug mode" sitting by the pool and reading.

Today is Robyn's actual birthday (although we held her party several days ago). I cannot believe that she is ten years old already - how time flies. She doesn't know it yet but we're planning a surprise dinner with one of her best friends at her favourite restaurant tonight. School ends on Friday so this will be the last week I have a quiet work from home environment! Thankfully the kids have a lot of Summer camps and other activities planned already to help keep them busy during the long SUmmer break. I'm a little concerned about just how hot this Summer will be as temperatures in Central Texas have already been in the high nineties Fahrenheit for the last couple of weeks. Well above average for the time of year. We've also seen some nasty storms come through already. Our roof (which was replaced in 2005 after a hail storm) has again been badly damaged by hail and Lorna's car also needs work done on it to get the hail dents removed. In the USA in general this looks like being one of the worst years in a long time (maybe ever) for damage, and sadly deaths, caused by Tornadoes. I don't know if this is due to climate change or not but suffice to say the weather here this year has been pretty unusual in many ways.

That's about all the news for now. I'll try and post again in a few days time.

Luckily, we managed to host my son's soccer team pool party during the afternoon and early evening yesterday before the storms arrived. There is no way we could have hosted it today. When we awoke the pool was full to overflowing (the emergency drain seems to have become blocked by all the tree debris). The pool was also full, and I do mean full, of leaves and twigs. We have been cleaning it out off and on all day and we are still not done.  Later today I need to figure out what is blocking the drain and fix it and do more raking up of all the leaves and twigs that are spread all over the front and back yards. It really is quite a mess. I wish I had more energy but at least this will keep my mind of my other worries for a while!

The past week or so we have had several big storms (although this was by far the worst) and it seems we have had a lot more tornadic activity (even this far South of "Tornado Alley") than usual.  When I moved to Central Texas, while the realtors were busy telling me how great a place it was to live in I think they somehow forgot to mention how much "fun" Spring can be!

After this week we go into a monitoring mode at approximately three monthly intervals where I will be tested for any signs of the cancer coming back, both by my oncologist and my surgeon who will be monitoring things too. So those visits will be nervous times for me I am sure but I am not going to worry about them right now as this is a major milestone and I plan to celebrate a little once we get through this week.

In about two weeks I'll need to schedule surgery to have the chemo infusion port removed from my chest , yet more hours of blood tests and filling out CYA forms at the hospital, for what is hopefully a 20 minute procedure. At the same time as the port is removed, while I am sedated the surgeon plans to do an initial internal exam to see if there are any signs of the polyps that can turn cancerous coming back. If there are that will have to be dealt with as my genetics are such that the average time it takes for a polyp to go cancerous is one year or maybe less. I believe the average for a person that does not have my genetic makeup, is 10 years (quite a difference).

When I started writing about each of the chemo visits, I made the analogy to a 12-round boxing match. I wondered at the start if my opponent (the chemo meds) would be too much for me. For sure he landed a few good blows but my blood levels and other numbers continue to improve and we have not had to delay any of the rounds so I think when all is said and done I am hoping for a "points decision" in my favour !!

I'll post again soon but for now I need to sign off as I just got a shot of Ativan (Lorazepam) and I am getting drousy!

As I mentioned yesterday my focus for the evening now is fighting off the fatigue long enough to enjoy the Rush concert that starts at 7:30pm at the Frank Erwin Center here in Austin. I'll try and write up a bit of a post conference report tomorrow. I am interested to see how much they have changed the set list since we saw them last year (apparently there are going to be some changes).

Rush come back to Austin for the first time in 14 years

Hopefully I will be in pretty good shape still on Wednesday evening as Canadian rock legends Rush are performing in Austin for the first time in years. In fact I was not even living here (and I have been here since December 1995) the last time they were here. One of the local papers did an interview with lead singer Geddy Lee about coming back to Austin, you can read it here. Last year they came to San Antonio and I took my nine year old daughter Robyn. It was her first concert and I was not sure how much she would enjoy Rush but she loved everything about the show and has since learned the words to most of the songs on the tour album (Snakes and Arrows). I have been a Rush fan since my university days when my good friend Mike introduced me to them. Since then I have seen them in concert multiple times both in the USA and the UK and I honestly think they are playing better now than they ever have - and they were always good. The Austin date was added as part of some extended venues that were not part of the original tour. I am hoping that they jiggle the set list a bit but even if they don't I am really looking forward to the Show. In San Antonio they played for about three hours with a short 15 minute break in the middle. Certainly great value for money.

Express baseball

The professional baseball season is now well under way here in the US. We renewed our season tickets this year to the Round Rock Express (the AAA affiliate of the Major League Houston Astros). Their stadium is less than 10 minutes by car from our house and it's a great night out for the whole family. We went to the game last night as I am keen to do as many things as I can before the fatigue hits for this round. Last night the Budweiser Clydesdale horse team were their outside the stadium and we all enjoyed meeting the horses and their trainers. They told use they are on the road touring 300 days every year! The game itself was also very exciting last night, aided by the fact that the home team came out on top. So we had a fun night of baseball and ball park food plus a visit to the in-stadium kids play area.

That's my updates for now, I need to get back to working on my e-mail in box and some other work tasks. The oncologist has a better wireless network than I have at the house so it's actually a great place to get work done!

I woke up this morning finally feeling less foggy from the last chemo round. This is the longest amount of time it has taken so far for my fatigue to subside between rounds. Of course round eleven starts on Monday so I had better enjoy it while it lasts. The doctor had warned me that the amount of fatigue tends to be cumulative and that certainly seems to be true in my case. Given I felt a bit more with it, after watching some of the English soccer on TV this morning and doing a bit of housework indoors, I decided it was time to take on the huge mess that used to be my nice tidy garage!  The garage had somehow become our dumping ground for a lot of stuff over the past few months and the mess had really started to bug me (even over the effects of the "chill out" pills they have me on so you know the mess was bad!!).  Thankfully I managed to get it mostly cleaned up but I could not believe how quickly I ran out of steam. I had to take lots of breaks.  Hopefully when chemo finally ends my energy levels will return to something like they were back last Autumn (pre-diagnosis and pre-surgery).  As people who know me will tell you I am not good at sitting still. I need to be busy and it's starting to frustrate me how weak I still am. I guess I have to keep reminding myself I have been through a lot and my body has taken a pounding the last five months or so. I also need to remind myself to just be grateful for what I have as things could easily have been a lot worse than hopefully they are.  On the plus side, the fact that I am getting frustrated is probably a sign that at least in some small way I'm getting more back to my old self!

As an aside, I am typing this entry using the Apple Mac Book Pro laptop which I now use for almost everything I do computer wise. I continue to be really impressed by this machine. I originally bought it as an early Christmas present to myself so that I would have something fun to play with and learn to use during the long hours in the "chemo chair". As you may recall from some of my prior postings, I have never before owned an Apple machine of ay type but this laptop has quickly progressed to being my principal machine. I just love how reliable it is and I really like the "feel" of the machine and it's applications and I am unquestionably more productive on this machine than I am on any of my others.

So anyway, that's my update for today. As I mentioned above, chemo round eleven starts on Monday (just two to go now) so I'll try and post some more updates in the early part of next week. Now I need to go power up the XBOX 360 as Jack wants to see if we can kill a few more aliens before bedtime tonight!! ]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:56:08 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000072 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Apr-11-a Fri, 11 Apr 2008 13:13:58 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000071 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Apr-07-a I am sitting at the oncologist as I type this, about two hours into round ten. I met with the doctor this morning and we chatted for a bit. He is pleased with my progress to date and we discussed some of the next steps that he has planned for me post chemo. The net is that I'll need to get another cat scan once chemo ends to re-establish a "baseline picture" of how I look and then I'll start seeing him on a frequent but more periodic basis to keep tabs on how I am doing. This is more or less what I expected. He is hopeful the treatment plan will have done the job but I'll still need to be monitored closely for the next five years at a minimum in case (Heaven forbid) of a recurrence. I know I am going to be nervous every time he tests me but he is being very positive so that is as much as I can ask for at this stage.

Reading

Thankfully my eyesight seems to be improving even though I am still in treatment and I am finding it much easier to keep up with my reading than had been the case during the earlier weeks of treatment. I have managed to read several books in the past few weeks. I just finished reading The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. I have not yet seen the film that was recently released but having read the book I definitely want to see it now. The Kite Runner was a refreshing change from my staple diet of action/suspense and science fiction books. I won't spoil the plot here but I will say it gives a great perspective of life in Afghanistan over multiple decades from the time before the Russian invasion all the way to the present day. I found myself really attached to the main characters and I found myself suffering along with them as I read the book. If you have not read this book yet, you might want to add it to your reading queue. In many ways a sad story about people trying to make the best of their situation but also uplifting at other times, definitely well written and well worth reading.

I also recently finished The Broker by John Grisham. This was different from his normal style in that it was more about spies and espionage than it was about court rooms and lawyers. That said, I really enjoyed it, although I have read reviews from Grisham purists who viewed it as one of his worst books. The book is mostly set in Bologna and other parts of Italy and by the time he is done describing the place you are left wanting to hop on the next plane a go visit. So while definitely not a typical Grisham book, I enjoyed it - I guess I am not a purist!

Video Games

I hadn't had much time to play video games lately nor the right state of mind probably given how "foggy" my head has been. That said this weekend between lots of outdoor activities I made time to sit down and finally finish the single player missions of Halo 3 (XBOX 360). This is a thoroughly enjoyable and well engineered game. I am really grateful to my friends who gave it to me as a get well present back in the post surgery days. It has been one of many useful distractions that have helped keep my mind off things. I have now started playing BioShock which was a birthday present from the family back in February. So far this looks like another very interesting and high quality game but more violent than Halo 3 I would suggest based only on about two hours playing time. With Summer weather already here I need to keep my gaming to a minmum and set the right precedent by doing a lot of things out doors and thus, hopefully, encouraging the kids to do the same. That said I do have my PSP sitting here with Metal Gear Solid loaded and ready to go should I need a fix during the five hour long chemo session today!

Summer is almost here

This weekend, the weather was gorgeous, blue skies and temperatures rose to the high 80's Fahrenheit by Sunday afternoon. Both Robyn and Jack had soccer games on Saturday and I played on Sunday. We all are a bit sun burned today. It's supposed to be in the eighties each day of the coming week. The kids decided that the weather was so nice that they were going to jump into the pool which they duly did and I must say despite the water being barely above 70 degrees, they had a great time. So I guess this means the pool is now officially open for business for the 2008 season. I would usually have jumped in there with them, anything above 68 degrees I will swim in happily but the meds I am on right now make me so sensitive to cold I am going to need to run the pool heater for a couple of days before I'll be able to join them in the water.

Football/Soccer

In my prior post I mentioned I was hoping for an Arsenal win against Liverpool in the first leg of their Champions Leage match. Sadly the match ended in a 1-1 draw which gives Liverpool a definite advantage as the teams head into the second leg of the tie. With the away goals rule, Arsenal have to score at least once at Anfield as a 0-0 draw would hand the match to Liverpool. Having also watched the teams tie 1-1 in the league right after the first leg, I am not confident Arsenal can pull this one off but I guess we'll see. For sure they need to rediscover their goal scoring ways from the earlier part of the season. On a related topic, I really enjoyed watching the FA Cup semi-finals from Wembley this past weekend. It's great to see the FA Cup magic is still alive with many of the big clubs having been knocked out by lower division opposition. I look forward to the final, which has the unlikely lineup of Cardiff vs Portsmouth. I'm really happy for my friend Graham who is a huge Pompey fan. I hope he can get a ticket for the big match.

Mac Book Pro - update

It's been about three months or so now since I got my Mac Book Pro laptop. I continue to be really impressed by this machine. The fact that every night I can put it to sleep and in the morning open the lid and have it wake up and start downloading my mail without me having to anything is really great. I have re-booted the machine twice since the start of the year and one of those time was just part of installing a major OS update. This really is a robust platform. By contrast, if I put my Windows XP laptop to sleep (hibernate) more than about 3 times in a row I have to reboot the system to get it working properly again. I'm not a Windows hater it's just that with the Mac I have found a machine where I feel very comfortable, a machine that I trust to work the way I expect it to and most importantly of all, a machine where I am definitely more productive. As I learn more and more of the Mac's features I'll keep on posting updates. I will also note that the one negative thing I have observed lately is that if the processor is working hard, the metal casing gets very hot and if you have it sitting on your legs while wearing shorts it can get pretty uncomfortable - of course this is just what you need on a cold night flight across the Atlantic - so that could be viewed as a plus!

So that's it for this round of miscellaneous updates. I'll try and post again soon as I progress through round 10.
]]> Mon, 7 Apr 2008 12:01:07 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000070 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Apr-02-a wrote about it here . A lot has happened since then but I guess the overall summary is "so far so good".  I have three chemo rounds left to go now which really is not that bad but the side effects, especially the constant sense of fatigue, do seem to have become cumulative. My last chemo treatment is scheduled for the week beginning May 5th so I can at least see the light at the end of that particular tunnel now. Round ten begins next Monday (April 7th) and at that time I have a meeting scheduled with my oncologist where I want to have a "what happens next?" type discussion. As far as I know I go into a sort of frequent checkup maintenance mode at that point (both with him and my surgeon) but I have several questions I want to ask him. I will also need another (minor) surgery at some point to remove the "power port" that is used to infuse the drugs into my system. The one question I really want an answer to is the one question he cannot answer. That of course is "am I cured?". All he is able to give me, and this is not his fault, it's just the nature of the beast, is statistics and a prognosis based on experience in treating similar cases. In spite of this, and I try not to dwell on it, it is frustrating having undergone all that I have in the past six months that there is no definitive test that can tell you how well the combined surgery/chemo treatment plan has worked. As I have joked with him in the past, the bottom line is that if I am still here for my checkups in five years then he has cured me! That said, my spirits are pretty good and I am not wasting too much time worrying about things that I really cannot do much about. Of course the little pink pills help there too! On a positive note, an experience such as this really helps remind you of the things that are truly important in life. I feel that I am closer to my wife and kids than ever before (and we have always been a close family) and I have been reminded how many wonderful friends I have all over the World that have been there for me these past six months. My oncologist commented to me that years from now I will actually look back on this as a positive experience on many levels. I think he is right. Not only have I been reminded of how much my family and friends mean to me I have also bonded with so many brave fellow patients that I meet week in, week out at the oncology clinic. I am humbled by many of the stories I have had told to me by other patients describing what they are going through - it really does stop any small amount of self pity from rising to the surface when you are constantly reminded that things could be a lot worse. It has also been hard lately to see a few people who are probably still in high school being brought in for treatment. Sadly cancer is a very indiscriminate predator.

On a lighter note, Spring is in full bloom here, and although we have had several cloudy and rainy days lately, Summer is clearly just around the corner. Even on the cloudy days our temperatures are getting into the high 70's or low 80's Fahrenheit and the water in the pool out back is now up to 70 degrees and the kids are begging me to turn the heater on so they can start swimming. Last year I started swimming when the water was 68 degrees but one of the side effects of the meds I am on is that I am very sensitive to cold so I suspect they won't have to twist my arm too hard on this one. I could certainly use the exercise!! Talking of the kids, they are already counting down the days left until the end of school (which for us happens at the end of May - much earlier than for my friends and family back in Europe). We have started discussing what we want to do this Summer which has been great fun. We are already planning a few fun things to do with the kids in June once I am done with chemo which really is a pleasant change in dinner time conversation from some of the other daily issues we have been dealing with the past six months.

Oh and completely off topic, hopefully Arsenal will beat Liverpool later today in the Champions League which will definitely raise my spirits! The match is being shown live on TV here so I'll probably record it and watch it after work tonight (apologies to any Liverpool fans I just offended but I have been a mad keen Arsenal supporter since I was about five years old).

So with that, I'll close this somewhat more philosophical than usual posting.

 I'll post again soon, probably after I talk to the oncologist again on Monday if not before.

]]> Wed, 2 Apr 2008 10:15:38 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000069 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Mar-27-a Yesterday marked the end of my ninth chemotherapy cycle. So that's nine down and three to go. My last one will be the week of May 5th so not so far off now. The side effects (mostly the fatigue and some annoying bouts of nausea) have hit me quicker than usual this time so I'll keep this update brief. Hopefully this means I'll be more with it by the weekend when both of my kids have soccer games that I very much want to be at. I am both excited and anxious to see the chemo treatments getting close to done. On the one hand I will be glad to be rid of the side effects but on the other, seeing my oncologist on a weekly basis and having him re-assure me that things are going well has, to some extent, become my safety blanket and I think it will take some getting used to being off the treatments once we reach that point. Of course, having said that I'll be going in for regular monitoring so I guess I'll get enough interaction to keep my spirits up. I really love the oncology team I am working with they really are a great bunch of people and they are so up beat that it definitely rubs off on me and as far as I can tell the other patients as well.

I'll post more updates soon, once the "chemo fog" clears again.

I continue to be very grateful for all of the e-mails and messages in the guest book and the messages I have been getting on Facebook. You guys out there have done more than you probably realize to help keep my spirits up. As always, a very big Thank You!

On Saturday Robyn took the first part of her Tae Kwon Do black belt test (called a mid-term) and we believe she passed. She will take the final part of her test either in May or August depending on the scheduling. We are very proud of her as this is a non trivial achievement.

This weekend the weather here was wonderful and it looks set to stay that way all through this week. We have clear blue skies and temperatures are forecast to be in the  60's today and up to the eighties by the end of the week. Spring is a wonderful time of year here (except for the days when the super cell storms come through!). We had no soccer matches this week as we were all off for the Easter break but both kids have practices and games this coming week so I am going to be quite busy in the evenings and on Saturday with that.

I had promised to post some of the San Antonio photos here. I haven't yet had the time to work on doing that but here at least is a photo of the Alamo. Please ignore the man pushing a trash can. I took this photo in a hurry while my son was having a melt down and did not have a lot of time to think about perfect composition !!

The Alamo, San Antonio, March 2008.

I am feeling very tired today so I'll keep this post brief and aim to post again soon as the week progresses. I hope everyone has a great week.

On Friday morning we got up and packed, had breakfast and set off for the San Antonio Zoo. However, on arriving at the Zoo we realized this had been a bad idea. All of the parking lots were full and even though the San Antonio Spring Break is the week after ours, we could see that the Zoo was packed full of school parties getting off to an early start on their Spring Break plans. In the end we did not even try to park, we just got back on the freeway and started to head home. Our daughter, Robyn, was not at all pleased by this turn of events as she had really been wanting to see some animals. Clearly we needed a plan B. Luckily my wife knew of a wildlife park near New Braunfels called the Natural Bridge Wildlife Ranch. The park is just  a few miles west of I35 and more importantly right on our way home. We had seen the signs by the side of the road before but never been there so we decided to give it a go. It turned out to be a great idea. The park was not that busy and the main attraction is a "drive in your own car" safari tour. The highlight for all of us was when a group of Zebra came up to the car and stuck their heads in and let us feed them some of the animal food we had been given as we entered the park. Despite the warning signs about not hand feeding the animals both by the roadside and in the guidebook, the animals are clearly used to cars and people and expect to get fed! We saw several animals walk up to a car, wait to get fed and then on realizing the car had no food walk on in disgust to the next car. OK so it wasn't quite the full African experience but it was a lot of fun. That said, we decided not to try hand feeding the osteriches as they all just looked too cranky to take the chance!  While in New Braunfels, we also took the opportunity to enjoy a really nice lunch at the famous New Braunfels Smokehouse - the food is great and if you are ever passing through I recommend it for a lunch or dinner stop. They focus on barbecue but they also serve salads and other lighter fare.

We arrived home around 5pm on Friday afternoon, by which time the crazy Texas Spring weather was up to 97 degrees Fahrenheit!  Weather wise we have been on a real roller coaster ride (as is normal for the time of year) with high temperatures ranging from the mid sixties all the way up to almost 100 degrees. Today as I type this it's in the eighties outside but very cloudy and we are under a severe weather watch with the chance of both hail and tornadoes before the end of Tuesday - such is life in Texas during the Spring time. A few years back we lost our roof to a Spring time hail storm so you learn rapidly down here to take these weather notices seriously.

On Saturday the "chemo fog" finally caught up with me, and today (Monday) I am still struggling to shake it off.  Consequently, I stayed at home to rest on Saturday while Lorna and Robyn got up really early to go to a 3 v 3 soccer tournament. They came home tired and sunburned but as best as I can tell they had a good time despite by all accounts having had to play some very tough teams in the competition. Sunday was another rest day for me although I forced myself to go and play soccer during the afternoon just to get myself out of the house. Suffice to say my reactions were not that sharp and I mostly stood in the goal without too much to do but it was nice to get out for a bit.

Today I was back at the oncologist for my iron shot and other (non chemo) meds but at least I have a few days now before round nine gets underway next week. Sadly two of the meds make you sleepy - just what I needed !!

That's all the news for now. I took a lot of photos during our brief trip to San Antonio. I'll try and post a few over the next few days, but I need to do a little cropping and Photo Shop-ing first! ]]> Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:10:47 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000066 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Mar-10-a

On the topic of DST, for the benefit of my friends and family in the UK, given that your clocks do not go forward until the end of March, I am now one hour closer to your time for a couple of weeks. So, for example, 12pm (midday) here is currently 5pm in the UK where it is normally 6pm for most of the year.

As well as getting the kids up early, I also had to leave the house at the same time as round eight of my chemo treatments starts today - again what a great way to Start Spring break! I am currently sitting in one of the comfy reclining chairs at the oncologist's office as I type this (which is no mean feat I might add given all the meds they pumped into me a few minutes ago that have made me very dopey). They tested my blood an hour ago and I just got the results. Thankfully my platelet count has gone up again and there is no need to adjust my treatment plan at the present time. I am very happy about this. I'm into a routine now and as a creature of habit I am hoping I can stay on my routine until May when my chemo treatments end.

I'm looking forward to Wednesday when this round ends. I am taking the rest of the week off so that I can spend some quality play time with the family.

I'll post again soon as I get through this round. Only four more to go after this one!!!
]]> Mon, 10 Mar 2008 10:55:37 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000065 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Mar-07-a

I have been trying to keep up with my reading as it really does help me relax and thankfully my eyesight seems to have improved a bit in the last couple of weeks from where the FOLFOX cocktail had taken it to during the first several weeks of chemo. This week I finished another of the Harry Turtledove books in the Colonization series. I enjoyed it so much that I immediately started reading the next one which is in fact the last in this set of three (although it's really book seven in a series of eight related books). I am grateful to my friend Roger who introduced me to this author and I have really enjoyed every book in the series. The books are science fiction in nature but take place in an alternate view of history where an alien race invades the earth right in the middle of the Second World War and the various human nations have to put their differences aside to confront the high tech invaders. If that concept for a story line appeals and you have not read any of the Harry Turtledove books then I highly recommend these.

Some of you may have noticed that the Guest Book has changed. My web hosting company recently upgraded their server software and replaced the guest book tool with a different one. I have had a few people tell me that they have had trouble posting to the new guest book but as far as I know it is working  correctly. I am a bit nervous however, as since I switched over no one (except my wife and I who were testing it) has posted. If you feel the urge I would appreciate a few of you posting to let me know it is actually working correctly. All of the old messages are still available in an archive that I have created and provided a link to on the main Guest Book page.

While speaking about hearing from people, I would like to mention that I have been contacted by several people who found my web site while doing web searches for information on colon cancer treatment. I am both humbled and pleased that these people have contacted me and also hopefully found some of the information I have been posting useful. As I have mentioned before here, one of my goals when I decided to be very open about my diagnosis and ongoing treatment was to provide some relevant information and perhaps also a little hope and encouragement to others that find themselves in a similar place to me. I am glad that people have found this site and I am grateful that it has proven useful for them to be able to compare notes with me. To all of you who have contacted me, we're in this together, try to stay positive, the treatment for colon cancer these days has come a long way even in the last ten years or so. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Keep up the fight!

On the sports watching front this has been a mixed week for the teams I follow. I was really happy to see Arsenal beat AC Milan in the Champions League on Tuesday but I am not quite so happy with the way the England cricket team is performing in New Zealand this week. Still you can't have everything as they say.

For my Mac owning friends who ping me regularly to ask about the (still fairly new for me) Mac Book Pro - it's official - I'm in love. This week I did not even open up my Windows laptop once. I was able to do all of the things required by my job as well as a bunch of personal projects during the evenings solely on the Mac. I have only found one program so far (Quicken) for which the Mac native version will not work for me. This is because for reasons I do not understand, the makers of Quicken decided that the file formats used by the Windows version of Quicken and the Mac version would not be 100% compatible. As I like to share my files between my machines (for backup purposes as well as pure convenience) I decided to try installing the VMware Fusion product this week that lets me run Windows applications on the Mac. So far, after two days of using it, I have to say that this seems like the perfect solution. I do 90% of the things I need to do using native Mac applications and  then run Quicken using Fusion when I need to. As one of my good friends commented after I had been saying how much I was enjoying using the Mac - "I told you so". For the technically minded, I installed Windows XP Service Pack 2 in the VM and so far it seems to work just fine. So now I have the best of both Worlds as far as I am concerned with Mac applications and Windows ones running side by side on the same desktop without me ever needing to re-boot the Mac to switch to Windows or go to another machine to run the Windows applications that I need to run. I guess you can sign me up for the Mac fan club at this point. I really do like this machine a lot.

So anyway, that's about it for now. I'm looking forward to another busy weekend with lots of time hopefully being spent outdoors. Chemo round eight starts on Monday but at least next week is Spring Break as I mentioned and I have a few days off with the family to look forward to at the end of the week.
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Several of you have written to me asking how I am liking my Mac Book Pro now that I have had it for a couple of months or so. In short I love it. It is by far the most reliable computer that I have ever owned. I still use my trusty IBM Thinkpad during the work day to get some work specific things done but even most of those I could do on the Mac now that I have the appropriate software installed. In the evenings when I tend to try and find time to work on more personal things like surf the web, my non work e-mail  or working on the web page I have been using the Mac almost exclusively for those tasks. I just installed the Leopard (Mac OS X 10.5.2) upgrade and it seems to be working well. I particularly like the new Time Machine enhancements.

As a side note, my web hosting company just upgraded all of their server side software. As far as I can tell the migration has gone without a hitch but please do let me know if you see any unexpected behaviour from the web site over the next few weeks.

That's about it for right now then. More updates to follow soon and as always thanks for the continued messages of support. Although as far as I can tell things are going pretty well this remains a very nervous time for me and all of the e-mails, calls and messages in the Guest Book really do help me a lot keep my spirits up. ]]> Wed, 27 Feb 2008 15:47:09 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000063 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Feb-25-a

Today for the first time since we started working with the oncologist my blood test results are heading in the wrong direction. This is another side effect of the FOLFOX cocktail that they have me on.. My bone marrow is not keeping up with production needs and consequently my platelet count is significantly down. My haemoglobin level is slightly down. While these side effects are often to be expected and are a common occurrence with chemotherapy patients, it is still a bit depressing to have any kind of setback. If my platelet levels get much lower they may have to suspend treatments until they rise again. Among other things, platelets help the blood congeal (clot) and stop bleeding from occurring. If my count drops much lower I will be told to suspend all of my physical activities that involve any chance of me getting cut - this would mean no more soccer for a while and would be really depressing. I have really started to look forward to my weekly Sunday soccer match now that I am back into the routine and that my body seems to have enough stamina to get through a game OK. I played again yesterday in fact and felt more alert than I had the week before - which is good given I am the goalie!

In other news ......the Girl Scouts cookie drive which has been running for the last five weeks finally came to a close yesterday. I think Robyn has sold something in the region of 500 boxes of cookies so I think she has more than done her part for the cause! It will be nice to see more of both Robyn and Lorna again now that they won't be rushing off all the time to man a cookie booth.

That's about if for now, and given the meds really are making me sleepy I'll close this posting. 

As a footnote, you may have noticed that a few days ago I archived all of the remaining 2007 entries from this page. They are all still available in the archive. ]]> Mon, 25 Feb 2008 11:09:39 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000062 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Feb-18-a

On Friday evening the kids were invited to an indoor skating party so I broke the roller blades out of retirement and decided to have a go too. When I lived in Florida I was a mad keen in-line skater but since moving to Texas (which is not flat like Florida) I have not skated so much. That said it all came back to me pretty quickly and while I didn't push myself very hard it was fun to skate with the kids and also to find another way to start getting a bit more exercise. Meanwhile, the weather here this weekend was a real mixed bag. A front came through on Saturday and it rained and stormed all day. Meanwhile, on Sunday it was a gorgeous blue-sky day with temperatures right around 70 degrees Fahrenheit. This is not unusual for this part of Texas as we get close to Spring. Luckily, both Robyn and I got to play our soccer games as hers was indoors on Saturday and mine was outdoors on Sunday. I played in goal this weekend (my usual position). My family came to watch which was great and the kids had fun playing outside and burring off some steam. I could tell I was a little timid in goal, my wife told me she could see a difference too (those who know me might find that hard to believe as after all you do have to be a little crazy to play in goal as they say). Hopefully as I get a few more matches under my belt both my confidence and my energy level will return. Despite my feeling a little sub-par my team won handily as we have an extremely good set of on-field players in front of me this season - thanks guys for carrying me!

On Saturday morning I went over to some other English friends for a wonderful, full English, cooked breakfast to watch the Man Utd. vs Arsenal FA cup match live on the BBC. I am ashamed of the way my Arsenal approached the match and the 4-0 thrashing they endured was no more than they deserved for the "we don't care" way they seemed to approach the game. It seems that with all of the money tied up these days in the Champions League and the Premiership that a lot of clubs are not taking the FA Cup seriously. This really breaks my heart, as when I was a boy growing up, the FA Cup was the competition everyone wanted to win and I used to love getting up early every year to watch all of the festivities leading up to the FA Cup final, played each year at Wembley Stadium in May. As far as I can tell the FA Cup has lost its magic and a whole generation has grown up since I left the UK not able to enjoy the passion and excitement that we all  felt watching the matches - if this is progress you can keep it!

On Sunday evening we went to one of my Sister's-in-law for dinner and they surprised me by throwing a little "half way through chemo" party - which included my own personal and extremely delicious carot cake. This was really nice of them and it did help lift my spirits which have been down a little lately purely because the fatigue seems to be getting more prolonged each week. To be fair, the oncologist had warned me that this was likely.

This week is going to be busy both at work and in the evenings after work. Both my son and daughter have their first practices of the new outdoor soccer season and as coach of Jack's team and co-coach of Robyn's I am going to be busy. The good news is that this weekend sees the end of the Girl Scout cookie selling season so I will be seeing a lot more of my wife and daughter!

Today is President's Day here in the U.S.A and while I am not off work a lot of people are. My e-mail in-box has been noticeably quiter than average today and I am ok with that.

So that's about all the news for now, wherever you are reading this I hope you have a safe and pleasant week. ]]> Mon, 18 Feb 2008 17:18:15 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000061 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Feb-13-a I just got back from the oncologist again which marks the end of round six. So I am halfway there! May 5th still seems like a long way off but at least it's downhill to the finish line from here on. The fatigue has already started to hit me but other than that this round seems to be progressing much like all those that have gone before. I don't have much other news today so I'll keep this posting brief. Thanks as always for all the messages of support in the Guest Book and elsewhere that I keep receiving and very much appreciate.
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Today, I am back at the oncologist to begin chemotherapy round six of my twelve planned rounds. So by the end of this week we will be half way there - yippee !! 

I'll keep this posting short as the meds they just gave me are making me sleepy! ]]> Mon, 11 Feb 2008 10:39:38 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000059 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Feb-04-a October 10th posting) was of course to keep my many friends and relatives around the World updated as to my progress and in return I have been extremely grateful with all of the support and encouragement I have received. However, I had a secondary goal ,which was to share with others who may be faced with a similar diagnosis some of my own personal experiences and perhaps in some small way to help them also by allowing them to compare their notes with mine. I was looking at the statistics that my web hosting company keeps for me this weekend and noticed that a lot of the traffic coming to this site is as a result of people doing cancer treatment related Google searches. In particular I seem to have a lot of people looking for others sharing insight into the side effects of the FOLFOX chemotherapy. With the caveat up front that all chemotherapy treatments are tailored to the individual patient and that the medicines used vary depending upon the type of cancer being treated I decided I would make a dedicated posting here discussing the side effects that I am experiencing now that I have been on the FOLFOX regimen for 5 cycles (of a planned, 12 cycle, one week on, one week off, program). I described the specific medicines that I am receiving in the January 2nd entry so I will not repeat that here.

Every time I visit the oncologist, which for me is at least once a week, they run down a list of possible side effects and ask me if I am getting any of them. I decided I would try and replicate that list here and share my current view of which ones I am seeing and which I am not (there's not a lot to be squeamish about here but if medical stuff is not your cup of tea, skip to the last paragraph of this entry now).

UPDATE: I updated this entry on January 5^th 2008 as I realized I had left fatigue, probably my biggest symptom, out of the original list below:

Fatigue	About two or three days after each chemo cycle I get hit with fairly severe fatigue that usually lasts about two or three days. So, as I typically do my chemo on Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday I usually find myself getting very tired by mid afternoon of each of the following few days. Usually by the Sunday I am back to normal again. The only way I know to deal with it is take a sleeping tablet or a Xanax as needed and go to bed and sleep it off. I rarely make it past 7pm before "crashing" on these days.
Hair loss	With this chemo there is not supposed to be much hair loss if any. I am maybe seeing minimal thinning of my head hair but basically I am not experiencing any hair loss so far and in fact I need a haircut right now.
Nausea	I have had minimal nausea. The worst was the first week. I have not even come close to vomiting.I have two different prescriptions for nausea but I don't find myself needing to use them too often and then only the weaker of the two.
Diarrehea	This one I am experiencing. Sometimes it can get pretty rough but there are medicines like Limotil that can be prescribed (as was done for me) that really help. I also find eating lots of yogurt really helps too.
Eyesight	Apparently the meds can cause a hardening of the cornea which can effect eyesight. Even with my new glasses, in less than very bright light, I am noticing some problems reading books for more than a few pages at a time.
Bruising	I have not experienced any bruising but I do notice that on a few days right after chemo treatments that some parts of my body, often large muscles, are a bit more tender than normal if I bump into things.
Heartburn	Heartburn has been fairly common. Generally I find a few "Tums" or equivalent antacid tablets take care of it.
Sensitivity to cold	This one was the biggest surprise. One of the three medicines, the  Oxaliplatin,  effects the nervous system and has had a lot of odd side effects. The good news is that this drug is credited with a lot of the recent successes in treating colon cancer and also it's worse effects wear off a few days after each chemo cycle. Fundamentally it makes me incredibly sensitive to cold. Both food and drink and also to things that I touch  I learned early on to only drink warm (or at least room temperature) drinks for the first few days of each cycle. Drinking cold liquid leaves me feeling as if my throat were swollen - trust me on this one, it's a very odd feeling. I also find it hard to hold on to anything cold (say a pot of ice cream from the freezer) and I never put my hands into cold water.The oxaliplatin also causes my jaw muscles to hurt (quite severely) from time to time a lot like I imagine TMJ pain would be.
Mouth sores	They always ask me about this one but so far I have only had one and I am not convinced the chemo caused it (I think I may have burned my mouth on hot food). Either way their are good meds to nip this one in the bud if you experience them.
Rashes and/or breaking out	From time to time I have experienced something like being a teenager again in terms of my skin but generally it has not been that bad and it seems to always clear itself up pretty fast.
Bleeding	I have had no abnormal bleeding thus far.
Shaking	From time to time I have experienced some shaking in my hands but as I type this I am actually back to normal again - it seems to come and go.
Pain	I have not experienced any unusual pain that could be attributed to the chemo.

So there you have it. That's my summary of what five cycles of FOLFOX has done to me. I hope those of you that got here by way of a Google search found this useful. If things change over the next seven rounds I will post an updated version of this table.

As always thanks to everyone for their support and especially for all of the birthday wishes I received over the past few days. I had a very nice birthday on Friday. The Wife and kids took me out with some good friends to the local Tokyo Steak house and a good time was had by all. On Saturday I was pretty tired but my energy came back in time to enjoy the Superbowl on Sunday.

Finally, if you are reading this as a fellow patient I wish you all the best towards a cure.
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I don't have a lot of other news to share today other than I am trying to work a full day today which is keeping me busy so I'll keep this update brief. ]]> Thu, 31 Jan 2008 09:28:49 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000057 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Jan-27-a

Tomorrow (Monday) chemo round five begins. If the last round is anything to go by, it will probably Saturday or Sunday before the effects ware off. The really sad part is that this coming Friday is my birthday and I don't think I'll be up to much celebrating. I promised the kids we'd go out for a fun dinner but just a few days late. They seem OK with that. At least I should be able to enjoy the Superbowl on Sunday.

Anyway, life goes on and I'll just have to tough it out again this go around as I have done in the prior four. The good news is that we are getting close to halfway through the planned twelve rounds.  As I have said many times before, I really appreciate that so many of you are keeping in touch by IM, e-mail, phone or the Guest Book to offer support. It really does help and I really appreciate it.

I'll post again soon. ]]> Sun, 27 Jan 2008 22:05:14 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000056 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Jan-24-a

My other big news this week is that, for the first time since September last year, on Tuesday night, I played soccer. Now I don't want people to get excited thinking I am pushing myself too hard and I certainly took it very easy first time out. I asked my doctor if it would be OK to try and in fact he supported the idea saying some increased activity would be good for me and he re-assured me that my chemo port was unbreakable (now that sounds like a challenge if ever I heard one!). So this week I decided to have a go at playing for one of the three teams I belong to. This particular one is a co-ed team that plays in a very friendly (read not overly competitive but fun) 6-a-side indoor league. The matches are 40 minutes long divided into two 20 minute halves. It's a fast moving format but players can sub in and out at any time. Over the course of the whole match I doubt if I played for more than a total of 15 minutes but it was great to "have a go". My stamina was very low but at least this time it's as much due to lack of fitness than it is oxygen in the blood. My oncologist did warn me that I will still be lacking for energy for quite some time and he was right but I really enjoyed seeing my teammates again and doing something a little more energetic than walking. To be honest, if you had told me back in October that I would be able to play ever again, yet alone in mid-January, I am not sure I would have believed you. So, while I did not contribute very much to the team and I am certainly not going to push myself too hard, I at least feel like a very important part of my life (playing sport) is coming back to me and for that I am extremely grateful. Now if only my energy level would come back enough to give me the confidence to go and tidy up the disaster area that is our garage. Oh well, baby steps!! ]]> Thu, 24 Jan 2008 09:42:26 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000055 medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Jan-20-a th.  Today I am having a lazy, domestic day. I got some housework done and paid the bills this morning while watching the English Premier League (Man City vs West Ham) on TV. This afternoon I am "vegging" on the couch watching the NFL playoffs and trying to get some reading done. The latter is still a big challenge for me as the chemo has very much affected my eyesight as I have mentioned before. My oncologist assures me this is a temporary state resulting from a hardening of the cornea caused my the chemo meds. Lorna and Robyn are off selling Girl Scout Cookies (yes it's that time of year again!). Jack is off being Jack (which right now means he is locked in combat with Mario, Luigi and other of his best Game Cube friends).  So other than that, it's pretty quiet around here, which is fine by me.  I hope you are all having an enjoyable weekend. ]]> Sun, 20 Jan 2008 15:41:36 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000054 medical personal http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Jan-14-a

The oncologist was packed today. In fact, when I arrived, I got the last remaining empty chair, which as luck would have it was at the far end of the room in a quiet corner. This was handy as for the first time I had planned to do some work phone calls from there today (with a headset and a quiet voice of course - I cannot stand overhearing people yelling to their colleagues on cell phones in planes and such places so when I absolutely have to take a call in public I always try and be as unobtrusive as possible). So basically I worked a full day today, in fact I have reached the point where I can pretty much ignore everything going on around me and to me and just work (or sometimes play) during the visits and I find that helps the time pass a lot faster. 

So tomorrow I go back for day two of this round. I need to get there before the pump runs out which should be around 1:15pm (it needs to run for 22 hours before they can start their next drug set). The day two visits hopefully end up being about three hours. Hopefully tomorrow will keep to that pattern.

As a side note I have heard from three people who went to have colonoscopies done having read my blog here and in each case the doctor found treatable pre-cncerous polyps. So if nothing else, by being fairly open about what happened to me I have in some small way helped influence the lives of a few others in a positive way. For that I am very grateful. Once again we see the power of the Web when used sensibly.

Depending on the side effects, I'll try and post again tomorrow, but if it's like last round, I may be off the air for a day or too. Right now I am going to go and watch the second episode of the new Terminator series on TV ("The Sarah Conner Chronicles") which the DVR hopefully recorded earlier. Episode one was yesterday and I really enjoyed it. A much better sequel than the recent attempt at resurrecting the Bionic Woman in my humble opinion.

So that's the update for now. As always thanks for all the support in the Guest Book and elsewhere. Despite the fact that things (touch wood) seem to be going well for now I still really appreciate all of the support at what remains a very nervous time for us. ]]> Mon, 14 Jan 2008 21:51:47 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000053 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Jan-11-a

While talking of work, I have also started posting to the work blog again finally after many months of almost total silence. I tend to post  items on the work blog that are more technical in nature and discuss things I am doing on the work front. Consequently those entries are not of as much interest to everyone that comes here to this site. If you do check out the work blog you will notice I have been experimenting with Facebook quite a bit. Thank you everyone that sent me friendship invites recently during my post-surgery recovery period. I think I have now accepted them all and have started sending out additional requests of my own.

I'm continuing to really enjoy the Mac Book Pro. I'm planning on taking it with me to the chemo office for the first time on Monday as I now have enough applications, music and other goodies loaded on to it that it should prove to be an able companion for the planned five hours I will be "in the chair". I also ordered (and just received) an Apple Bluetooth keyboard so that I can plug the Mac into the 42inch wide screen HDTV that we have the Wii plugged into and use it from the couch. This should be very cool (as long as the kids ever let me have the TV that is).

If you follow my Books and Magazines section you will know that I finally finished reading Harry Turtledove's Colonization: Second Contact this week. This was a another good book in the multi-book series that I am working my way through. It has taken me several months to finish it. My reading speed has slowed down a lot in recent months with everything I have going on but it has been made significantly worse by the fact that the chemo seems to have negatively affected my eyesight to the point where my eyes get very tired after reading just a few pages. Thankfully, I just called the eye doctor and after almost a month of waiting (the frames I picked were back ordered it turns out) my new glasses are ready. I am really hoping they help as I am struggling even working here at the computer all day yet alone reading books in the evening.

By the way, for those of you that like to keep up with the kids, I just posted three photos taken on Christmas Day to the Family Photo Journal over in the Family & Friends section.

That's about it for now then. I'm glad the work week is almost over. I plan to try and enjoy the weekend and eat and drink all the things that I know I won't feel like eating and drinking next week in vast quantities over the next two days! This weekend the weather is supposed to be superb here so I am planning to try and divide my time between playing with the kids outside and watching the English Premier League and the NFL playoffs inside. I'll need to get up fairly early tomorrow (for a Saturday that is) as the Arsenal vs Birmingham match starts on TV here at 9am I think. I hope everyone has a pleasant and restful weekend. ]]> Fri, 11 Jan 2008 14:12:58 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000052 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2008-Jan-08-a American Girl shop they have there. As a typical male this is all alien to me but apparently this type of quest is quite the thing to do these days. Suffice to say we have a new addition to the family as of last night. Complete with matching outfits of course and accessories. Oh well that takes care of the Santa money for another year!  Robyn is already working on me to fly her to LA so she can visit the (even bigger) Beverley Hills store!  Oh and in case you were wondering about the Central Texas weather, it's like Spring here this week. A few showers, lots of sunshine and temperatures in the 70's Fahrenheit - gorgeous.Apart from the time I needed to take to go get "infused" this morning I managed to work a full day today and in general (for a day or two at least), things are back to normal.

Thankfully the wireless network was performing well (as usual) today and I was able to get a lot of e-mail and other work done while they worked on me (despite being mildly drunk!) and to be honest the time went by quite quickly.  If my wife or my boss are reading this, don't worry I didn't sign any important papers or other documents while "under the influence" !! Unfortunately, as I have mentioned before, the treatment does not stop when I leave the office. In fact the infusion process runs almost non stop for 48 hours. I am sitting here at home on the couch (yes watching more English football) as I type this with my "take home" battery powered pump buzzing away next to me giving me regular doses of the Fluorouracil (commonly known as 5FU) medicine. It even comes with its own (not very stylish) shoulder bag. I think there is money to be made for someone here who designs a trendy bag that turns this thing into a bit more of a fashion accessory!

The other of the two specifc chemo drugs that I get on a "day one" visit is called Oxaliplatin (OX)  It is the one that I find has the weirdest side effects. It messes up the nervous system to the extent that I become very sensitive to the touch for anything cold. So much so, in fact,  that if I put my hand in cold water (as I did without thinking, to fish some leaves out of our pool during round two) it feels like I have had a significant  electric shock followed by prolonged tingling in the fingers. I also find it close to impossible to swallow any cold drinks for several days after getting a dose of "OX". It's a good thing that English beer can be drunk and enjoyed at close to room temperature :-)

I received several e-mails today, from m any parts of the World,  wishing me all the best for round three. I really appreciate the fact that so many of you are keeping up with my schedule and are continuing to send me messages of support and encouragement. Lorna and I also really look forward to checking the Guest Book every evening for new messages and we often also go back and re-read the prior entries.

Tomorrow I don't have quite such an early start. The portable chemo pump needs to run for 22 hours before they start "day 2" in the office. I think that means I need to be there at around 11am or so.

So that's the update for today. I'll post again soon. On the bright side, after this round I will be 25% of the way through the treatments. ]]> Wed, 2 Jan 2008 20:55:01 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000049 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Dec-31-a About this time of the year I like to reflect upon all of the things that I have to be thankful for. I suppose I could be forgiven for looking at 2007 as a year to rapidly forget. On the contrary, despite all of the medical issues that I have had to face up to, I truly do have a lot to be thankful for and also have many fond memories to look back on from the year. Among the highlights were being with my family to watch the space shuttle Atlantis launch from the Cape back in June and taking my nine year old daughter to her first rock concert. I took her to see Rush (one of my long time favourite bands) and she loved it. We also got to enjoy our new swimming pool for the first time and I traveled a lot less than usual and as a result got to spend a lot more time with the wife and kids. Lorna and I did some fun things too, including a weekend break to Houston to watch the Astros play which was a lot of fun. So all in all we had a lot of fun in 2007. When October arrived and I was diagnosed with cancer, I will admit that I did for a while fall into a brief pit of self pity. However, due to the amazing support of my wife, other family members and all of my friends around the World I was able to (for the most part) rebound and keep my spirits up. I am truly thankful that my family doctor was on the ball and caught the cancer at what we hope was a fairly early stage. I am also extremely thankful that we found such a skilled surgeon to operate on me and that the surgery went by without major incident. I am also grateful to all of the nurses and other staff at the Seton Medical Center in Austin for the care and professionalism they showed me during my time as their "guest". I am also more thankful than simple words can truly express, for all of the e-mails, other messages of support, gifts, cards and deliveries of food that arrived (and continue to arrive). In times of crisis you really do need your friends and you have all been amazing.  Thank you all so much. So as we head into 2008 I have regained much of my optimism and am looking forward to whatever the year brings. I still have some unknowns in my future, but hey, which of us doesn't?  I also know that I am not alone in having had to face up to some severe personal challenges in 2007. Several of my very good friends have lost loved ones or had to face up to their own medical challenges. All of you remain in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that you each find strength and happiness in 2008.

Wherever you are reading this, I hope that 2008 is full of good things for you.

Happy New Year!
]]> Mon, 31 Dec 2007 15:57:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000048 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Dec-29-a As well as having some time off work to spend with the family over the last week or so, which has been great, I have also enjoyed having a block of days with no chemo treatments. I have had a lot of side effects from the previous two treatments so I really need this time to recover from those. My next round starts next week on January 2^nd so I am trying to make the most of the time between Christmas and the New Year. On "Boxing Day" (December 26th) I spent a lot of time in front of the TV watching the English Premier League before I had to go see the oncologist for my "off week" checkup/iron infusion visit. . As many of you know I am a huge Arsenal fan and the match between Portsmouth and Arsenal was one of the many I enjoyed watching (despite the Arsenal performance being extremely flat). Of the matches I watched, the game of the day had to be the 4-4 draw between Aston Villa and Chelsea. We are fortunate here in the US these days that the Premier League gets a lot of TV coverage so I am able to keep up really well with the matches. In fact, as I type this I am watching Chelsea play Newcastle live on the TV and after this match is over the Arsenal/Everton match is on so I guess I'll be glued to the TV for a few more  hours yet.


A couple of nights ago our kids had a sleep over with some of their cousins and Lorna and I were able to go to a movie. We have not really managed to have a "date night" since my surgery so this was a real treat. There are currently several movies on that we would like to see but in the end we chose National Treasure: Book of Secrets and we both really enjoyed it

I have also been trying to get back into my reading again. I still haven't finished any of the books that I started before my surgery back in October. This has nothing to do with the quality of the books, however. It's more a case of I have had trouble relaxing enough to read and lately the chemo seems to have negatively affected my eyesight such that my eyes get tired after just a few pages. Thankfully I just had my annual eye exam and my new glasses should be ready next week.

Given I still get tired pretty easily, I have had to spend a fair bit of time stuck on the couch resting. Consequently I have finally managed to spend quite a bit of time playing with the new Mac Book Pro laptop. I remain really impressed with this machine. The operating system and all of the preloaded applications seem really well done. I'm planning to start maintaining this web site using the Mac fairly soon. The only complaint I have is that the iWeb program that came with the machine (as far as I can tell) can only be used to create new web sites and not to edit/manage existing ones - so this for me is not very useful. While talking about computers, we bought the kids a new PC for Christmas, primarily to stop them destroying the machine in the office here at the house (which is the only one we had previously that could run their favourite games). The machine we got them came preloaded with Windows Vista. Sadly, of the three games I have tried to install so far, not one of them has worked. They all worked fine on the other machine, which is running Windows XP.  So I'll either be putting XP on the new machine this weekend, or I'll end up giving them my home office machine and putting the new machine in there.

As my friends outside the US may not realise, this is a big time here in the US for collegiate football. There are seemingly endless "bowl" games on TV between Chritmas Eve and New Years Day. This year, our local team, the University of Texas Longhorns were in the Holiday Bowl, played in San Diego a couple of nights ago. They were not expected to win but in fact did win and convincingly so (52 - 34) over Arizona State. Lorna and I enjoyed watching the game on TV. After an average season by their standards, it was nice to see Texas end the season in style.

Later today (if he ever wakes up!) I promised Jack we would put his new Hotwheels track together. I'm not sure which of us is looking forward to it more. After that I have to help Robyn download some more music into the new iPod that she got for Christmas. In fact Lorna and Robyn both got new iPods so I think I am going to be busy loading up iTunes with large chunks of our CD collection over the next few days.

That's about it for now. I hope you are all enjoying the holiday season as much as we are.
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To all my friends and family around the World who celebrate Christmas I wish you a very special "Merry Christmas" and to all my friends who celebrate other holidays I wish you likewise nothing but good things at this festive time of the year. All of you have done so much to support me these past few months for which I am extremely grateful. In spite of the tough things we have endured recently I am constantly reminded of the all the good things in the World that I need to be so very thankful for.

From me and my family to you and yours, I wish you peace and joy. ]]> Tue, 25 Dec 2007 10:15:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000046 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Dec-21-a Guest Book).

I hope wherever you are reading this you have a very safe and enjoyable holiday season.
]]> Fri, 21 Dec 2007 09:28:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000045 family http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Dec-17-a Pump it Up where the kids get to bounce around on all manner of large inflatable toys. We had about 20 kids show up and a good time was had by all. Here's a photo I took of Jack with his sister (Robyn) enjoying himself at the party.

Given it took me several days to recover from the first chemo round, I have not had as much time or energy to play with the new Mac as I would have liked. However, today, I met a good friend who is a Mac guru for lunch and he was kind enough to give me a crash course in some of the cool features and also help me setup some of the key software that I want to run on the machine. I hope to spend more time over the next few days exploring. My ultimate goal is to be able to use the machine for both work and fun. Even in the short amount of time I have had to play so far, I have been very impressed with both the machine itself and the new Leopard operating system software that came preloaded. 

I mentioned in my previous posting that I would comment on the amazing journey the Mac took to get to me. I guess this just shows what a global economy we live in. I ordered the machine from the Apple web site which I assume is in California but have no real idea where it is. I naively assumed the machine would come from California too. However, when I got the FedEx tracking number and went to track the delivery I found the machine was being assembled and shipped from Shanghai in China. It was a lot of fun to follow the journey from then on. I managed to figure out which FedEx flights the machine was on by cunning use of flight trackers and the FedEx web page. I was able to follow the machine as it made its way to me across the Pacific. In the end, before being delivered  at my front door, the machine visited the airports in Shanghai, Anchorage, Indianapolis,  Memphis and Austin - quite a journey! What I found even more amazing was that the machine arrived within 25 minutes (early) of the originally scheduled delivery date and time that had been given to me when I placed the order a few days before - pretty impressive I think.

This week I have worked a full day each day so far and that has been really nice in terms of giving me a strong feeling of normality. I also managed to finally make time this week for my annual eye exam (which was months overdue) and I was glad to see that my eyesight is more or less the same as it was last year. I have been told that the chemo may negatively affect my eyesight so I wanted to get my new glasses ordered before the chemo has a chance to distort everything too badly (no pun intended). While my energy is definitely continuing to come back, in the evenings I still find I need to spend quite a lot of time taking it easy by relaxing in front of the TV or doing other low energy things like playing games. This week (admittedly with help from my kids) we managed to complete level 8 of the solo player missions in Halo 3 (there are ten in total). We are now fragging our way through level nine! Halo 3 is a very enjoyable game but also a very pleasing game in terms of the overall graphics and production quality. Once I am done with the single player missions I am tempted to try playing on-line but I am also more than a bit worried that that could turn out to be a really big consumer/waster of time - but right now maybe that's OK!!

On a happier note, I bought myself a new toy, an Apple Mac Book Pro laptop that I hope to use to keep me occupied during some of the upcoming chemo visits. I have never owned a Mac before so I am excited to start exploring all of the cool features. I'll make a dedicated posting in the next day or so to talk about the Mac and my first impressions. I'll also describe the amazing journey the machine took to get to me.

I continue to be grateful for all of the kind messages I continue to receive via the Guest Book, e-mail and so many other ways. I really appreciate and continue to need all of your support. ]]> Wed, 05 Dec 2007 22:03:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000042 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Dec-03-a ]]> Mon, 03 Dec 2007 23:13:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000041 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Nov-30-a port-a-cath that will be used to infuse the chemotherapy meds starting next week. The procedure itself was very quick but we (my wife and I) still ended up spending several hours at the hospital (by the time you factor in the waiting room, paperwork, surgery prep, surgery itself and finally recovery). Before they put me to sleep, I had a chat with my surgeon in the OR and he again checked the status of my previous repairs and he gave me the all clear to ramp up my physical activities. I am very pleased about this but of course will ramp up slowly so as not to overdo it.  My surgeon will see me again in six months, after the chemotherapy is over at which time he will remove the port (yet another minor surgery) and begin the three monthly monitoring process that I discussed briefly in my last posting. We left the hospital around 5pm and by then I was extremely hungry having not been allowed to eat since midnight the previous day.

Thankfully the sedation wore off pretty quickly and I actually felt pretty good almost immediately I woke up. Given I was both hungry and as always very open to any and all distractions I was able to accept a friend's kind offer to to join him at 7pm for dinner while watching the Dallas Cowboys vs Green Bay Packers game at another friend's house (this specific game was a very big one and was only available via satellite - something we don't have at our house).

Today I am a little more tired than I have been in recent days but I slept well last night and otherwise feel OK. The area around the new incision is pretty sore as is to be expected but I'm sure that will calm down soon.

I forgot to mention in my prior posting that I got the all clear to drive my car again too. While I don't yet feel confident driving long distances as my mind tends to wander sometimes, it has been great to be able to make a couple of very short trips by myself to local shops. Even the small things mean a lot right now.

This weekend I mostly plan to take it easy and maybe do a bit of Christmas decorating around the house - the kids are getting desperate to make progress on that. When I was a kid growing up in England I am sure we didn't start this early but it seems these days (at least around here) as soon as the Thanksgiving holiday is over the Christmas trees start appearing. On Saturday evening, assuming I feel up to it, I am going down to San Antonio (which is about 90 miles from here) with one of my brothers-in-law as we have tickets for the Big 12 Championship game. For the benefit of my friends and family outside of the USA, this is a fairly major college (American) football event. We were hoping that the University of Texas (which is based here in Austin) would make it to the game but they fell short this year. Given we already have the tickets and that it should still be a great game anyway we are still planing to go and hopefully enjoy the game. This is a fairly big deal for me as this will be by far my biggest adventure since before the surgery - and in case you were worrying - no I will not be doing the driving!

That's the update for now. I hope you all have a pleasant weekend. ]]> Fri, 30 Nov 2007 10:00:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000040 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Nov-27-a As I mentioned in my prior posting, last Thursday was the Thanksgiving day holiday here in the United States. For many of us, that meant a four day weekend. Despite the weather here in the Austin area being really nasty (cold and wet) it was nice to have a few days in a row where no one was pushing me, prodding me or sticking needles into me! We went to my brother-in-law's house for a fairly large family gathering on Thursday which was a great distraction for me and it was also great that I was able to enjoy the wonderful meal that had been prepared without too many worries. That said, I'm still learning which foods my new digestive system does best with and which ones mess me up. This will be an ongoing process for some time yet I think! On Friday we had a gathering at our house to watch the Univerity of Texas vs Texas A&M college football game (that's American football for my friends outside the USA). I am also getting a bit more confident about going out in public now so on Saturday we took the kids to see the Bee Movie which we all enjoyed. On Sunday we went to visit my wife's mother. So all in all I had four days of family time with lots of distractions. I also found some time to play Halo 3 which I am rapidly becoming addicted to.

This week I have to get back into the medical routine. Today I went and got my flu shot so that is taken care of before chemo starts next week. On Wednesday (tomorrow)  I have to go to the hospital for my prep visit for the small surgery I am having on Thursday to place the port into my chest that will be used to deliver the chemo meds. It's supposed to only be a half hour procedure and is being done as day surgery. Chemo is due to start next week. I am also due to see my surgeon again next week for another checkup. If he likes my progress I should get the all clear at that point to resume a few more physical activities (once I get my strength up some more anyway). I'm actually going to be seeing a lot of my surgeon over the coming months as at least for the time being he wants to monitor me at three monthly intervals. At least the monitoring can be done in his office without the need for all of the nasty preparations that go with a full colonoscopy. I guess eventually I'll get into the routine of all these appointments but right now, and I guess this means I am feeling quite a bit better, I am about ready for a break from the seemingly endless visits to one medical office or another! As always I'll just have to deal with it. The mess my kids make around the house (which can be substantial) has also started bugging me again for the first time since before the surgery so I guess that is another sign that I am feeling a bit better !!

Many of my neighbours have already put up their exterior Christmas decorations and my kids are on my case to do the same. I told them that if I feel up to it that maybe we'll make a start on that later in the week (energy and weather permitting).

Apart from a little time off for medical appointments I am planning to try and work pretty much a full week this week unless but I am being careful and will take breaks as needed.

I continue to be grateful for all the messages in the Guest Book as well as the e-mails and calls I am getting from people checking on me. All in all, I think I am coping fairly well. I still have a long way to go, and I am definitely a bit nervous about chemo and how I will react to it, but for the most part I have a lot more good days than bad ones at the moment. I'm trying to keep my attitide positive which I manage to do for the most part but I still have my moments!

Anyway, I'll post again soon, probably after the surgery on Thursday.
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Yesterday (Tuesday) I met the oncologist for the first time. I was extremely nervous going into that appointment as I know that these guys deal largely in statistics and probabilities and I knew it was time to face up to some numbers specific to me. However, the doctor could not have been nicer and explained everything nicely, clearly and even with a bit of humour. I took to him immediately. We discussed options, statistics and all manner of related things and he laid out for me his treatment plan. Even though my cancer was caught fairly early, and is officially being classified as a stage 2 cancer, he still believes that a course of chemotherapy adds quite significantly to my chances of a cure. I am not going to go into the numbers here (they really aren't that awful but I just prefer not to dwell on the stats too much). So I will start chemotherapy on December 3rd and it will take six months to complete the course. I will have to go to his office on two consecutive days every other week for a total of 12 visits (hence six months). I will also have to go back briefly on the 3rd day of every "on" week to have the pump they send you home with removed. He has assured me that the chemicals used have improved a lot over the years and that I should not get nauseous or lose much (if any) hair. There are a few possible side effects, the biggest one being fatigue, but none of them sound too terrible. The office visits are going to be a little longer than I had realized. I think (memory fails me a bit here) they said 240 minutes on the first day and 180 minutes on the second (but I may have got that wrong). The good news is that this is a pretty high tech oncology practice and they have wireless internet in the treatment room - maybe you'll see a blog post from there in the future!!

As some of you may know, the prefered way of "plugging me in" to the chemo machinery each visit is through a port that is installed in my chest. This means I have to go back into the hospital next week (Thursday November 29th) for a minor surgery to install the port. The same surgeon who has been treating me can also do this procedure and he says it takes about 30 minutes and they will send me home the same day. I'm a little down at having to have yet more (albeit minor) surgery, but I'll deal with it.

So that is the update. I am glad I have got through the visits this week and that the plan both makes sense and also gives me a certain amount of confidence. Nothing is certain in life but I feel I am getting the best possible treatment and being given the best possible chance for a full recovery. In many ways my future is out of my hands now so I am going to try to just keep up as normal a life as I can over these next six months and try not to worry about the  future and things that are out of my control.

As always thanks for all of the continued support and encouragement. It really helps. This is still a scary time for me but having all of you with me (I feel  a bit like the guy in the Verizon phone commercial who has his network following him around) is really helping keep my spirits up.

I'll post again soon.

To all of my friends in the USA, a very Happy Thanksgiving. To all of you in other countries have a wonderful rest of the week.
]]> Wed, 21 Nov 2007 10:04:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000038 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Nov-14-a nd) I have actually felt like looking at a computer for more than just a few minutes. The good news is that I have been doing what I was told and getting lots of rest.

Lorna has been using the Guest Book as a bulletin board to try and keep everyone up to date on my progress so hopefully most of you know roughly where things stand.  The Surgery went well but I ended up in the hospital for a full week to allow me enough time to be ready to go home. I finally got to come home on November 2^nd and it was great to be back in my own "space" again. My appetite is slowly coming back but I have lost about 30 pounds since going into the hospital (some diet plan!!). I still have some pain but really it  has not been that bad and I have had to use surprisingly few pain pills.  My energy is also slowly coming back (as I mentioned above the surgery took a lot more out of me than I had anticipated it would). I have been able to take a few (very short) walks and also watch a couple of my kids soccer games. This week I even dialed into a couple of work meetings and started reading some of the 1000 plus e-mails that have accumulated during my "down time". It was great to both be doing some of the things I would normally be doing on a work day and also to hear some of my colleagues voices again. I am also trying to adjust to the physiological changes that my body has undergone - let's just say that remains a work in progress!

I am seeing my surgeon for my post-surgery follow up visit next week and I am also meeting an oncologist who will decide if I need a (hopefully limited) course of chemotherapy.

We have been overwhelmed with the number of gifts, meals, cards, messages in the Guest Book, e-mails  and other wonderful things that people have sent us over the last few weeks. I am trying to thank each of you individually but to all of you a huge THANK YOU. It really has helped keep my spirits up to know that so many of you are out there cheering us on.

I'll post again in a few days when we know more about my next steps and any additional treatment plans. For now I am just working on getting my strength back and not overdoing it too soon. I am hoping that if I do need chemotherapy that we can wait until after Thanksgiving here in the US (which is a big family get together time) before we start.

Thanks again everyone for your support. You all mean the World to my family and I.

]]> Wed, 14 Nov 2007 09:40:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000037 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-25-a
Obviously I will not be posting many more updates here for a few days (at least not from the hospital anyway - but don't think I haven't been trying to think of a cunning way to pull that off!).  After surgery, as soon as she can, my wife Lorna, is going to put an update in the Guest Book  as she can do that easily from any web connected computer she happens to find near the hospital. So if you want the latest news please keep an eye on the Guest Book for the next few days.

Last night I coached my U6 boys soccer team (probably for the last time this season) and enjoyed being out in the fresh air one last time before I go "under the knife". After practice we ordered a bunch of pizza's for the boys and the parents and had a few laughs. Not quite the final pre-surgery  meal I had originally intended, but in a way, it was perfect. This morning I managed to make one final trip to Starbucks before my pre-surgery special diet kicks in.

Talking of the special diet, I'm not allowed to eat or drink anything else now except for clear liquids (sadly I don't think vodka or gin counts) until after surgery. I also have to start taking the medicine that "prepares" you for surgery. I'll leave the details of that to the imagination. If you have ever had any kind of colo/rectal procedure you'll know what I am talking about!

So, that really is about it for now. Thanks again to you all for your endless support and help in keeping my spirits up these past couple of weeks. I am hoping that now I truly can start on the road to recovery how ever long or short it may be, and at least I feel like we are moving forward again now.

As the waiting is at last (almost) over and we start out on that road forward, I am reminded of the words spoken by a  famous countryman of mine back in 1942. "Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning."

Thanks again everyone for all your support, I hope to be back here in a few days with some more updates.
]]> Thu, 25 Oct 2007 13:34:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000036 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-22-a EKG, give (yet more) blood samples, give other samples, more tests and so on. Then there is the seemingly endless paperwork. I signed so many forms today I probably missed something in the small print stating that the hospital now owns my house and car! I have also had to give blood samples so often lately I am starting to feel like a pin cushion. I also spoke to the surgeon again today and I think he's all set to go so I think we are almost there - I just hope my Xanax supply holds out for a few more days! I feel noticably more nervous today than in recent days but all in all I think I am managing to "hang in there".

Over the Summer I had been actively trying (and succeeding - albeit slowly) to lose a bit of weight.  The last few days I have been trying as hard as I can to put it back on again! I figure that post-surgery my appetite is not going to be back to normal for a while and I am not really sure how soon I'll be eating normally again so the last few days I have been trying to eat things that I love without worrying too much about what they are doing to me. On the way home from the hospital today my wife and I stopped at Dave and Busters and I had a really good (and probably my last for a while) hamburger. This is one of the few pluses of my current state of mind - if it sounds good, eat it!

This past weekend we made the most of the beautiful weather. I helped coach my daughter's soccer team at 1pm on Saturday and then coached my son's team right after that. On Saturday night we went to visit the same friends we saw last weekend to watch the Rugby World Cup Final. Sadly, this time, England came second but a good time was had by all. On Sunday I went and watched my soccer team play as the anemia has kept me from being able to keep playing myself  but I wanted to spend a bit of time with the guys before the enforced downtime I have coming post-surgery.

Today, a first blast of Winter arrived in Central Texas. Over night a cold front blew in. Yesterday it had been in the high 80's Fahrenheit, today so far (as of 3:45pm) I don't think we have managed to get above 56F here at the house. It has also been raining off and on all day. This type of 30 degree swing is typical for Texas. It's supposed to be back into the 70's again by mid-week after this front has done its thing.

Finally, I continue to be very humbled by the continued flow of cards, letters, e-mails and postings to the Guest Book. Thank you all so much for your continued support. I am also very grateful to several of my work colleagues who got together and sent me a wonderful basket full of goodies. You are all extremely kind.

I'll post again soon with any more news but I think, for the most part, I just have to make it through until Friday morning now.
]]> Mon, 22 Oct 2007 16:07:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000035 personal medical weather texas http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-19-a
There is no additional news to report today on the medical front. I'm still waiting for the test results to come back that I described in my posting on October 16th but other than that we are proceeding pretty much according to plan. I have to go to the hospital in the early part of next week for the pre-surgery work up (to make sure I can handle the anesthetic etc.) and then of course Friday next week is the big day.

I am still receiving loads of e-mails from all over the World  wishing me good things and I cannot tell you enough how much I appreciate that. Also to those of you that are filling the Guest Book with messages - you are very kind, thank you.

I'll post again here as we get more news and as we get a bit closer to the 26th. For now I'm going to sit here, get some work done, and enjoy the cool breeze that is blowing in through my window.
]]> Fri, 19 Oct 2007 09:32:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000034 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-16-a October 11th , he had met with the doctor who performed the colonoscopy on me and was calling me after having had that conversation. Unfortunately he now feels we need to adjust from current "Plan A" to a somewhat more radical "Plan B".  Before I discuss the new plan I should perhaps explain how we got there. The doctors believe the root cause of my current problems is a genetic condition called Attenuated familial adenomatous polyposis  (AFAP for short). I am not going to try, nor am I qualified to, go into a lengthy explanation of what AFAP is. Heck, two weeks ago I had never heard of it. In short, however, it means someone my age is likely to have a large number (more than 20 but less than 100) of polyps in their colon and has a much higher than normal predisposition to these becoming cancerous in a relatively short amount of time. Today I went and had yet more blood taken so that a genetic analysis can be performed to prove for certain that I have AFAP (the results will be several days coming back) but I apparently have all of the classic indications of it and my medical team seem pretty much convinced on this one. My bigger worry, as a parent of course, is that there apparently is a 50% chance of this being passed on to my children. That, however, is a bridge we do not have to cross today.

So now for the change of plans. Plan A had been to remove a large part of the colon, Plan B (I am told the recommended procedure for AFAP cases like mine) is to remove the entire colon. The logic is along the lines of if you leave part of the colon behind, because of the AFAP, in a year or so we'll be right back here again and in the meantime I'll be almost living in the doctors office getting checked for a recurrence (I'm exaggerating obviously but not that much). However, to an "average man in the street" like me, this whole new plan, at least at first, sounds horrific and I have to tell you that last evening after the surgeon called, I found myself feeling like I had taken a huge step backwards. Today, however, after meeting with the surgeon in his office and asking all kinds of questions about quality of life and future preventative care needs I think I am (slowly) coming to terms with it. If all goes according to (the new) plan, I still believe I can live a fairly normal life. I am not going to go into the gory details of what it means in terms of living without a colon but I am sure you can find a lot more information about it on the internet should you so desire!!

Surgery is still scheduled for October 26^th. Suffice to say, I am a little shaken by this change of plans but as I had more or less adjusted to things under Plan A I am sure I will rapidly adjust to Plan B..... ]]> Tue, 16 Oct 2007 14:54:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000033 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-15-a Amazon.com turned up on my doorstep, out of the blue, on Friday afternoon. When I opened it, inside I found a copy of Halo 3. Now if that doesn't keep me distracted I am not sure what will. Look for more on my Halo experiences in future posts. I got to play for about an hour before it was time for us all to pile back into the car and drive to my son's U6 soccer game. This was a fun game too. At this age it is 3 versus 3 with no goalies and teams have 6 players. We play 8 minute quarters. I usually sub all 3 in or out once a quarter so everyone plays 4 times. It's great to see the little guys trying to do all of the things we have worked on at practice like (talk to each other, pass the ball, look where the goal is before you shoot at it and so on). This week we faced a tough team who focussed on defending their own goal and like  the great soccer managers who have come before me (OK well I can dream) I had to devise a plan to break down this stoic defense. I called the boys together at half time having observed the opposition strategy throughout the first half and shared with them my visionary thoughts on this issue "OK boys", I said, "go out there, have fun, run hard, and score a bunch of goals".  Inspired by the depths of my coaching insight that is exactly what they did!!  We don't keep score at this age - the focus is correctly supposed to be on fun and learning the game but a couple of our parents who apparently had been casually counting the goals said we edged it! To me, no matter what the score, we've won if six tired but smiling faces come trotting over after the game is over to dive into their well earned snacks!

On Saturday evening we had a baby sitter come watch the kids so we could spend the evening with some English friends and watch England play France in the Semi Final of the Rugby World cup. Aided by the result ( England 14 - 9 France), the good food and great company we had a really nice evening.

On Sunday I spent most of the morning and part  of the afternoon playing video games with my son as my daughter was at a birthday party. We had some quality boy time together which I think we both needed. Sunday evening we went to visit some family members and it's impossible not to be distracted when you have so many excited kids all getting together after a few weeks apart! Again we had more good food and conversation which included a deep discussion on the topic of Doctor Who between myself and one of my brothers-in-law which was excellent!

As I mentioned in my previous posts, I am trying to keep up with my reading and on Sunday I finished Dark Wind by Clive Cussler. It's another of his Dirk Pitt adventures and was pretty much par for the course compared to other books of his I have read. Definitely a "page turner" but perhaps a little formulaic and (in the books I have read ) the bad guys always seem to come from the same part of the World. I'm starting to wonder if the author has a secret grudge to bear. That aside, it was still an enjoyable read.

Today a couple of my long time good friends from work (who I have actually not seen a lot of lately)  took me out to lunch (thanks Mike and Mike) and again seeing them was a nice distraction.

 I have continued to receive a large number of cards, phone calls, e-mails, IM's and postings to the Guest Book. As always thank you all so much for that. You guys are doing a great job of keeping my mind off of my troubles.

That's about it for today.

Eleven more days until surgery - I'm going to need all of these distractions for quite a few days yet.
]]> Mon, 15 Oct 2007 13:30:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000032 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-11-a th.  For me though it still doesn't make the waiting any easier. I am trying to focus on work quite a bit and attending several meetings by phone. The worst time is definitely the evenings when things calm down and my mind starts imagining all of the amazing disasters that might befall me next!

However, many of you have sent me things to keep me pre-occupied and for that I am truly grateful I am indebted to my friend Tom Glover who pointed me at the following piece of colo rectal surgery humour! Thanks Tom, that gave us all a good laugh here at my house- I think I'll e-mail my surgeon the link (AFTER he operates on me!). Talking of my surgeon, he and the doctor who did the colonoscopy on me are meeting to consult with each other today. I am not expecting any major plan changes but I'll let you all know if anything should change.

Several of you have asked about the kids so today I removed the password on the family section of the web site. Those of you that want to can take a look and see how fast they are growing up. I'll try and add some more pictures in the next day or so. That will be another good project to keep me busy.

I am managing to relax enough to keep up with my reading and have also been working on my skills at Madden NFL 2007 to help keep me busy when I just need a little mindless distraction (mostly in the evenings after the kids are asleep). Also, and this really was good news to me, the medical folks say it's OK for me to keep coaching the two soccer teams I am involved with right up until the surgery. I coach my son's U6 team and I am the assistant coach on my daughter's U10 team. A little fresh air and exercise is in fact, JUST what the doctor ordered. We have practice three nights a week and games on Saturday. Being able to stay involved with these is a major plus for me.

Several of you have sent me cards in the mail - thanks so much for that very kind and very much appreciated act. Thanks also for the continued stream of e-mails, IM's and postings to the Guest Book. It really does help.

That's about it for now... ]]> Thu, 11 Oct 2007 12:55:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000031 personal medical http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Oct-10-a Over the latter part of the Summer I had been having trouble sleeping, mainly because my legs were becoming so restless at night. If you have never struggled with restless legs it's hard to describe but it is sufficiently annoying enough that it can easily keep you awake half the night (and for me it was doing so). I had become so restless my wife had to find another room to sleep in for fear of being karate kicked to death before morning!! Another symptom that I was having that I did not realize then but do realize now to be related, was a lack of stamina when playing sports (drastically more so say than a few months ago). So, given all this, a few weeks back I went to see my family doctor to ask if I could have some tablets to help me sleep and to ask if I needed some of this new Restless Leg Syndrome (RLS) medicine that is being advertised heavily on the TV here in the US at the moment. He did give me something to help me sleep but also took a blood sample to check my iron levels as low iron can contribute to restlessness . For those of us that remember our human biology from school, you will recall that, iron helps maintain the haemoglobin level in the blood, or put another way,  haemoglobin is the iron-containing protein attached to red blood cells that transports oxygen from the lungs to the rest of the body.  When my blood tests came back the levels were way below normal. So low in fact I was borderline for a blood transfusion right then and there. This immediately explained the restlessness and the lack of stamina - basically I did not have enough oxygen in my body . So I was diagnosed as anemic but now we needed further tests to find out why.  My doctor's opinion (which proved correct) was that I was losing blood somewhere - basically he suspected some form of internal bleeding (maybe a stomach ulcer or a colon polyp that was bleeding). I was referred to a Gastro Intestinal clinic. On October 1^st they performed both a colonoscopy and an endoscopy on me (basically they checked my colon and my stomach for signs of trouble).  My stomach was basically clear but the news in my colon was not so good. The GI doctor found several polyps, one of which looked "extremely suspicious" (English translation "we think it's cancer but need a biopsy to be sure").  For  the colonoscopy I was heavily sedated and it was many hours before I really came around enough to comprehend that  even at my relatively young age (42) and with my very active lifestyle and high fibre diet it was still likely that I had colon cancer.  When this all sank in I was a mess. I don't recall a day in my life when a single piece of news has hit me quite so personally and quite so hard. I did not find myself thinking so much of my own future but much more so of my young kids (5 and 9) and my wife.  Thankfully the doctor sent over a prescription for something to help me relax that night and the next morning we began the process of more tests and preparing to fight back. On October 2^nd I went and had a CT scan and had my blood cross typed in case I did end up needing a blood transfusion (given I still was very anemic). On October 3^rd (Wednesday) we started to get the results back. The bad news was that the biopsy has confirmed that I do have cancer in my cecum (bottom of the ascending colon if you again remember your human biology). The better news was that the CT scan and additional blood work had found no evidence of spreading and that we believe (I am a pessimist and always have trouble with good news) that the cancer is localized to the colon.

Yesterday (October 9^th) I met with a colo-rectal surgeon to discuss my options. Based on the collected test results, he has developed a surgery plan for me which will require quite a large part of my colon to be removed but if all goes well will enable me to eat and perform other digestive system related activities pretty much normally after that. The surgery is planned for October 26^th. I'll post details about the hospital and other relevant information closer to that date. After the surgery they will again test the various parts of tissue and lymph nodes that get removed during surgery and we will know much more about what this cancer has been up to. At that point I will meet with an oncologist to see if I need chemotherapy or not and I will likely also get a PET scan. I am encouraged by the fact that the medical team is comfortable waiting a few days to schedule this surgery on a non-panic basis but I'd still rather have this over with. If an earlier date opens up on the surgeon's schedule I will most likely take it for no other reason than to reduce the wait time.

That then...minus a few of the nastier details, is pretty much the full update. The lesson for us all in this (especially us stubborn men) is go see your doctor even for little things that are bugging you. If I had ignored this we would not have caught it as soon as we hope we have. I am also very grateful to my family doctor who did not just give me meds to help me sleep but was thorough and did that blood test that helped me get a proper diagnosis. I know that doctors get a lot of pressure to prescribe certain medications from the reps selling them. Any drug reps out there reading this please take note - treating the symptom does not always equal finding the cure.

I know several of you have already found out about this from the blogoshpere and other contacts and I truly appreciate all of the prayers, thoughts, e-mails ands other messages my family and I have received at this time. To be honest I am still in shock but slowly getting my energy back to prepare me for my road to recovery. I'm hoping it's not too long a road but there remain so many unknowns only time will really tell. Please do keep sending me those e-mails they really help - sometimes even surrounded by family and friends one can feel very alone at a time like this and knowing that you are all out there cheering me on is giving me amazing strength. It's also somewhat surreal, to have been following the courageous fight of Robert Jordan (see my prior posting) against a truly evil disease to now find myself in the middle of my own fight.

Finally, as several people have asked about it, I have turned on the Guest Book at this web site. Please do feel free to leave us a message if you are soon inclined.

My wife Lorna has been a rock by my side through this. It all came out of the blue and we have shared  a fair amount of tears together  but we are feeling stronger now and ready to start out on the road towards getting me cured. My kids are doing OK but not great. Jack (he's 5) is actually fine. We told him daddy will get better and due to his nature he just accepted that and keeps on trucking. He is  however mad at me that the doctor won't let him have my colon in a jar for show and tell at school (go figure!). My daughter, Robyn (she is 9) has taken this hard. She is blessed with about 500% of the empathy found in an average person. This can be both a blessing and a curse. She has figured everything out very quickly and she is hurting. We are taking steps to make sure she gets what she needs to get through this too.

I will keep responding to e-mails as quickly as I can but I will also post a message here whenever there is any news to share.

I have always felt one of my greatest gifts in life is having so many wonderful friends and family around the World. Thanks for sticking with me through this.I need you all.

Kelvin
]]> Wed, 10 Oct 2007 11:04:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000030 books http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Sep-17-a read with great sadness today, that James Oliver Rigney, Jr. (known to most of us by his pen name of Robert Jordan), author of the extremely popular Wheel of Time series of books has died. He had been fighting illness for some time and I had been following his blog and always hoping for good news. Sadly today the news is that he has lost his battle.

His books have kept me company on many a long plane ride and I have met many others while traveling who were also carrying copies of his books.

My sincere condolences to his family and friends. ]]> Mon, 17 Sep 2007 10:37:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000029 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Sep-16-a work blog. One of the things I have managed to do over the Summer is make more time for reading which has been particularly nice.
]]> Sun, 16 Sep 2007 23:00:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000028 travel space science travel http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2007-Jun-18a I felt both extremely lucky and privileged to be able to attend the launch of Space Shuttle Atlantis (STS-117) a few days ago on June 8th. It was even more fun to have been able to have my wife and kids with me. Hopefully this is something that my kids will never forget. I know I won't.

I used to live in South Florida (about 200 miles from the Cape) and I have seen several launches from there. However, from that far away, you only see the Shuttle on very clear days and only when it has climbed fairly high into the sky. By pure chance, I found myself able to be at the Cape for the recent launch and seeing a it up close is just waaaay better!

I was in Orlando for a short vacation with the family and had not even realized that a launch was planned anytime soon. When we heard that the launch was scheduled for 7:38pm on Friday evening (June 8th) and that there was an 80% chance of good weather, we decided the chance it and drive the 60 miles out to the Cape. The roads were very busy, clearly a few other people had the same idea :-)  The whole way there and the whole time we were waiting for the launch, I kept saying to myself  "try not to get excited, something will probably delay the launch, this probably won't happen today" - but could not hold back a sense of great excitement and it did launch!


We watched the launch from the lawn alongside the Astronaut Hall of Fame which is about 8 or 9 miles from the launch pad (on the mainland side of the causeway). We got there several hours early but NASA did an excellent job of keeping us both informed and entertained during the wait for launch. They had a big screen setup with up close shots of the launch preparations and they also had a stage setup. Former Shuttle Astronaut Col. Bob Springer made several appearances on the stage and spoke to us about where things were in the launch. He also took questions (many from young children) and answered them all very well. What a great role model he was (if only other people kids look up to were such good advocates for believing in your dreams). NASA also had setup a food tent, toilets, and gave everyone who had paid the small fee to park and attend the launch there unlimited access to the Hall of Fame and Museum (which my wife and I and the kids really enjoyed).

The picture below shows pretty much the view we had. Not knowing there was any chance this might happen when we left home for our vacation, I had left all of my bulky long lenses behind so this was taken with my small 35-90mm lens but it still captures the moment pretty well. Unfortunately there were two launch pads visible and I had positioned myself with a great view of the wrong one! Right before launch I heard that the Shuttle was actually on the launchpad behind the tree (and power lines) that were right in front of me - but hey - I was not looking for a professional shot, just a few great memories and we sure got that. The only thing that this picture cannot convey is the sound wave that we both heard and felt a few seconds after launch.

While on the subject of travel, last week I had to go to Chicago for the day to attend some meetings. It was amazing to see the difference that a few hundred miles makes to weather conditions (Chicago is just under 1000 miles from here). I left Austin at 6:00am on a beautiful clear sunny day (the high that day was in the high 70's F). When we landed in Chicago it was a scene from mid-Winter. Frozen lakes, snow, planes being de-iced and a high temperature of 29 degrees Fahrenheit. This was a good reminder of why I live as far south as I do! I got back to Austin around 11pm the same day - tired but happy to be back in warmer climes!

The other reason that I have been posting a bit less here than usual is that I have started working on a prototype for a completely re-designed look for this site. My goal is to switch over to that later in the year (yes it's time for the pink to go!).

We have had drought conditions for a long time now as well as some fairly warm temperatures. In fact it's been sufficiently warm that the temperature of the water in the pool has been hovering around 70 degrees (Fahrenheit) for the last few weeks without needing to use the heater. I think I was the first one in the pool in mid February aided by the fact that I have a very high tolerance for cold water. I think this is due to growing up in England where the English Channel was often this cold even in the midst of Summer! Both kids have also now been swimming several times now, but Lorna has yet to "take the plunge" !

This weekend in the US, we switched over to Daylight Savings Time. This is considerably earlier than usual due to a change in the law that came into effect this year. I spent most of Sunday morning making sure that all of the computers and other electronic devices in the house had realized the time has changed. For the next few weeks we find ourselves only 5 hours behind the UK which will make working with my colleagues there just a little bit easier. Of course getting the kids out of bed while it is still dark outside is not so easy (that's the downside of starting DST so early!).

In the sporting world, this week sees the start of the Cricket World Cup. I'm keeping my expectations extremely low for England's chances but of course I wish the team all the best as they head into this two month long event. Hopefully the successes they enjoyed towards the end of the recent tour of Australia will give them some momentum going into this competition. As with the football World Cup, one of the interesting dynamics is that as well as the big name cricketing nations you also get some other countries playing in the event that are not known for their cricketing prowess. It will be interesting to see if we get any surprises. What odds for a Scotland vs Holland final I wonder ? :-)

This week the kids are off school for Spring Break so, naturally, drought notwithstanding, it's pouring with rain and supposed to be wet until at least Wednesday.

Anyway, that's the update for now. I will try and get into a more regular pattern of posting over the next few months.

I have been maintaining my effort to keep up with my reading. This month I read Tom Clancy's The Bear and the Dragon (all 1100 plus pages of it) which I enjoyed a lot. I also read The Partner by John Grisham which I also thoroughly enjoyed. I am now reading Deception Point by Dan Brown and Hyperion by Dan Simmons. When it comes to books, one of my bad habits is that I tend to buy them in batches and then go back and read them. The net result of this is that some books have sat on my bokshelves for a very long time before I get around to reading them. Hyperion is a prime example, as I bought it while still living in tyhe UK back in 1990 and I am only now getting around to reading it in November 2006!

Last week the kids were sick and this week I have been very much under the weather as well but other than that things at home are going well. The pool project is coming along quite nicely (I'll try and upload some photos soon) and what looked like a large muddy hole in the ground a few weeks ago is now starting to look a lot more like a swimming pool as each day passes. If the weather cooperates, I am hoping it might be finished and ready for water in about two or three weeks.

I would be remiss in posting this update if I did not comment on the Ashes series that has just got underway in Australia. If any of my Australian friends and colleagues are reading this, what can I say, it looks like revenge may well be yours unless things change drastically after England's less than stellar performance in the first test!! That said, back in 2005, I recall feeling like this after Australia easily won the first test at Lords so maybe history can and will repeat itself - we'll have to wait and see. Either way, I hope it's another great series and as much fun to watch as the 2005 one was. Keeping up with the matches is hard from here in the U.S. The coverage starts at around 6pm in the evening here (which is not too bad considering that equates to midnight for those following the matches in the U.K.) but almost all of the regular internet feeds are blacked out due to licensing restrictions. The second test starts this evening (Friday morning for those in Australia) and I'll be doing my best to follow along and hopefully will not be made to suffer as much as I was a few days ago listening to Australia make record scores at the Gabba. ]]> Thu, 30 Nov 2006 23:26:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000020 travel miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Oct-27-a Most weeks are busy these days between work and family commitments and this week was no exception. Several days I stayed up late (and into the next day) to dial into some business meetings in Asia (but that was better than having to travel there given how crazy things have been at home).

In spite of how busy life has been, I have made a promise to myself that I will somehow find more time to read than I have been managing of late. This week I managed to read a couple of fairly short books. The first was Digital Fortress by Dan Brown and the second was the Great Train Robbery by Michael Crichton. I enjoyed both and found it easy to get through them but neither were in my opinion that great. If you look at my Books and Magazines page you will see that I gave each book a score of 7 out of 10. Digital Fortress is the third of the four Dan Brown books currently in print that I have read. The other two being Angels and Demons and The DaVinci Code. Of the three I enjoyed Angels and Demons the most. His other book Deception Point is in my queue of books sitting next to my desk waiting to be read. The Great Train Robbery is one of Crichton's first books (written I think in 1974). To be honest I didn't know it even existed until I saw it in a discount rack at the local supermarket a couple of weeks ago. Given my background (being born and raised myself in the UK) I picked up a copy as it looked like a storyline that I would enjoy. To be honest, it reads as much as a history book as it does a novel but it was none the less quite readable. I enjoyed his portrayal of events in Victorian England around the middle of the 19th Century and found it easy to relate to the period having studied it in detail while at school. The book was enjoyable enough but not as compelling a read as some of his other works. I guess, for me, it was a bit like watching the movie "Titanic", you already know the punchline before you get there, which for me, has never worked as well as a style of storytelling as one where suspense is maintained until the final chapter.

Other than being busy and finding time for a bit more reading, there has not been too much of note to report this week (which is just fine). We had quite a bit of rain during the week and so there has not been any progress made on the pool. The weather has been the usual mixed bag for this time of the year. A cool front (the tail end of a storm that left 18 inches of snow in Colorado earlier in the week) finally came in last night and we haven't yet quite managed to reach 70 Fahrenheit here today. It's also been quite windy here all day. The forecast is good for the weekend so hopefully I can spend a lot of time outdoors with the family and the dogs.

Finally, the dreaded annual test of willpower (also known as "how the heck am I going to stop myself eating too much Halloween candy?") is just a few days away. Luckily I have a soccer game on Sunday to try and run off a few calories first! ]]> Fri, 27 Oct 2006 11:21:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000019 travel miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Oct-19-a Kakuro (also known as Cross Sum) puzzles. Although I believe that these puzzles are quite popular I had not come across them before. In my spare time I have been trying to teach myself the Python programming language and so last weekend I decided to write a Python program to help solve Kakuro puzzles! I decided not to let the program fully solve the puzzles but to be more of a solver's aid (listing possible combinations of numbers that achieve the desired sum etc.). So for now the Kakuro puzzle book is remaining a fairly regular companion!

Life at home has been very busy (I think we've visited just about every flavour of kids doctor and dentist in the last two weeks!) and so I haven't been able to update the pages here too much lately. You may have noticed that I have been trying to keep up with my reading and I just finished World War: In the balance by Harry Turtledove which was a good read. I'm grateful to my friend Roger for introducing me to this author, whose work I had not read before.

Meanwhile, we finally broke down, after living here for 10 years, and decided to put in a pool. Today I am working from home with all the windows shut (despite the nice cool weather) as the guys are outside spraying the gunite. There is so much vibration that my car alarm goes off about once every 10 minutes! Yesterday it was almost 90 degrees Fahrenheit here but today (after a cold front came through last night) we are in the 50's....I don't think we'll be using the new pool for a while! ]]> Thu, 19 Oct 2006 11:21:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000018 travel web http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Oct-09-a I was interested to see the announcement by Google yesterday that they are making their Google Gadgets available so that people can embed them (via a simple script tag) in their own web pages. This is particularly interesting for people like myself, whose web sites are hosted by their ISP with limited space and features enabled (as in my case).If you missed the announcement you can find it here. The list of available gadgets is here. ]]> Mon, 09 Oct 2006 13:13:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000017 travel texas weather http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Sep-25-a We awoke this morning to temparatures in the 50's Fahrenheit. It's wonderful to be able to open all the windows again and let in some truly fresh air. This Summer we have endured in excess of 30 days where the temparature was over 100F. It's supposed to warm up into the high 70's or even mid 80's by mid afternoon but at least the evenings and mornings should be cooler for the next few days. We had a very strong storm front go through this area on Saturday (it was severe enough to cause the Univerity of Texas to suspend play in it's football game for over an hour). Now that the storm has passed through we are getting our first real relief from what has been a very hot Summer. Mon, 25 Sep 2006 12:10:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000016 travel conferences http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Aug-25-a Last week I travelled to Baltimore to speak at the SHARE conference. I left home before dawn on Sunday (August 13th) to get to the airport in plenty of time given the new security procedures in effect. Apart from it taking longer than usual to check-in (due to a lot more passengers than normal checking bags) I did not encounter any other unexpected delays. Given the recent events in the UK, I was happy to see that the planes were full and that the airports were busy - people are just getting on with life, which is good to see. I arrived in Baltimore on Sunday afternoon and left on Thursday afternoon for New York to attend some business meetings at our corporate headquarters before finally flying home from New York (via Chicago) on Friday evening. I did not have as much spare time in Baltimore as I would have liked but I did at least get to walk around the harbour and take some photographs. It was hot and at times quite humid during the week. I didn't sleep well at all in Baltimore. I think my hotel must have been either close to a fire station or a police station as all night I kept getting woken up by one siren after another. From Baltimore I travelled to New York for some meetings on Friday (I actually got off in Stamford CT as it was more convenient for my friend who met me at the station). I travelled by train for the first time in a while in the US as it was both cheaper and more convenient than flying for that particular leg of my trip. I have to say it was a very pleasant experience. I took the new Acela Express service that Amtrak runs between Washington DC and Boston. I would definitely take this train again. It was very comfortable, with plenty of space to work and even had AC power that I could plug my laptop into. I got the impression that a lot of people were taking the train for the first time to avoid the travel delays being reported by many of the airports in the North Eastern United States. The train was full. I stayed with my friends and his family in Connecticut on Thursday night and I slept really well (no sirens - or any other loud noises for that matter). It was great to not have to check-in to yet another hotel and spend the night with some good friends that I don't see as often as I would like. I'm very grateful to them for putting me up for the night. I got home about 1:30am Saturday morning after getting delayed in both New York and Chicago by a mixture of bad weather and an Instrument Landing System (ILS) failure on one of the runways at Chicago O'Hare airport. The weather in New York was bright and sunny but we could not leave on time due to the problems at O'Hare. I haven't taken much vacation time yet this year so I am taking the next two weeks off (I'm not going back to work in fact until after the Labor day holiday here in the US). We're in the middle of a really bad drought in Central Texas. I wish some of the heavy rain I had to deal with in Chicago last Friday would find its way here. We have been over 100 degrees Farenheit every day for the past week or so. I played soccer on Sunday afternoon (August 20th). It was 97F when the game started and 103F by the end of the game (yes I know, mad dogs and Englishmen etc). My daughter went back to School last week. I still have trouble getting used to how early the schools go back in Texas compared to what I was used to growing up in England where August is considered the height of Summer. Fri, 25 Aug 2006 09:20:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000015 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Jul-19-a For those of you that follow the Family & Friends section, after a long delay of about seven months, I have started getting some more recent photos of the kids posted. Wed, 19 Jul 2006 16:00:00 CDT http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000014 miscellaneous http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Jul-15-a Enjoying a period of almost two weeks since I last had to travel, I have finally started making updates to many sections of the site. I still have a lot more photos from my recent trip to Europe that I want to get on-line as soon as possible, but if you care to look around hopefully you will notice a lot of updates. For folks that monitor the Family & Friends area I promise I will get some new kid photos uploaded soon! Sat, 15 Jul 2006 16:00:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000013 travel http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Jul-02-a June was a very busy month for me. I travelled to Europe for 15 days of business meetings that took me to Prague, Vienna and various parts of the UK. I did manage to see a lot of friends and family members in between meetings and that was great. I will try over the next week or two to update the various parts of this site with some photos and other information about my recent travels. Upon my return from Europe I had to go out to California for a couple of days so I'll not start working on the updates until my head gets a bit more back into the correct timezone! As a temporary measure, I have placed a few photos from Prague into my Yahoo! photo album. ]]> Note that the resolution of the pictures is greatly reduced from the original by the upload process but at least (hopefully) you can get an idea of what a beautiful city Prague is. Sun, 02 Jul 2006 16:00:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000012 texas http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-May-11-a I have been incredibly busy at work (including quite a bit of travel) and things at home have also been busy and as a result I have not been able to post as often as I would like here in recent weeks. I have, however, managed to find a little bit of time to update other sections of the site. As has been reported in the news, May has so far been incredibly stormy in Texas. We have had numerous Thunderstorm Warnings and Tornado Watches issued by the Weather Service and sadly some areas of the state have suffered major damage as a result. We have also seen a lot of hail and very heavy rain. Mixed in with this it has been very hot. Just south of Austin, it hit 106F yesterday. Today it was cooler when we woke up as a light cold front moved through the area over night. Certainly a pleasant break from the recent very muggy conditions. The next few days are supposed to be more pleasant both in terms of temparature and calmer weather. Thu, 11 May 2006 16:00:00 CST http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/main.html/000011 science space http://www.kelvinlawrence.net/daily-archive.html#2006-Mar-23-a As I mentioned in my prior posting, a couple of weekends ago I finally was able to make the time to visit the Johnson Space Center in Houston. We took one of the tours that included a visit to one of the two former Mission Control rooms that were used during the Apollo program. It is fascinating to think that the total computing power in the room was about the same as that found in a modern day cell phone (at least that is what the tour guide told us). Note also the plastic tubes on the left side of the console. There was no e-mail in those days so if you wanted to send a message to someone else anywhere in the building you sent a note on paper in a tube to them through a system of pipes like those used today in many banks and other businesses! We have come a long way since then but I bet the didn't have the spam problem then that we have now! As I mentioned in my prior posting, if you are at all interested in the space program's of both the US and Russia, this tour is a must. There is another tour that takes you into the current mission control room but we did not have the time to do that tour as well. We also got to go inside many of the other buildings, including the one that contains the training areas for the Space Shuttle and for Space Station Freedom.

One of the consoles in the former Apollo 13 Mission Control room